Sea Breeze 01 - Breathe

that would come from this.
    “I want inside you, Sadie. So bad. I want to be as close to you as humanly possible. But I don’t want you to ever regret it,” Jax’s words almost sounded as if he were pleading. My head knew what the right thing to do was, but my heart wanted something else entirely. I turned in his arms and slipped both of my hands up his chest and then into his hair.
    “I love you, and I want that too.”
    Jax closed his eyes tightly and swallowed hard. “Are you positive?”
    I ran the pad of my thumb over his bottom lip and then stood on my tiptoes so that I could kiss where I’d touched. “Yes.”
    Jax reached around me, turned off the shower, then opened the door and grabbed a towel. He wrapped it around me, then lifted me into his arms and carried me into the other room. He put me down on the bed, then stood back and looked at me a moment before walking over to open the bedside table. The fact he had condoms in there was a little surprising.
    “Don’t start thinking what I know you’re thinking. I’ve never been in this room with a girl. Jason uses this room when he has dates he brings home. His last girlfriend stayed in here, so I knew it would be stocked.”
    The bucket of ice water I’d been expecting was stilled by his words. This wasn’t some room Jax brought his dates. I was special. I had to believe I was special.
    Jax ran a finger over my eyebrow. “Why the frown?” He asked leaning down over me.
    I was about to give him something I’d never be able to get back. I needed honesty right now.
    “Am I special to you? Or am I just another girl? Another summer?”
    Jax dropped the condom on the bed and his body moved over until he was beside me. He pulled me into his arms and held me a moment. I was beginning to think he wasn’t going to answer when he buried his face in my damp hair. “You will never be just another girl. You will be the only one I ever think about. I’m in love with you, Sadie. I’ve never been in love with anyone before.”
    I thought about Jessica and the lifestyle she’d led. The guys who had used her and tossed her aside. None of them treated her the way Jax treated me. This was different and I was smarter. I reached for the condom he’d dropped and I opened the small package. “I want this. With you.”
    Jax reached for the condom without a word and I let him take it. I didn’t know how to put that thing on him. I watched transfixed as he rolled it down his length then I lifted my eyes to meet his steady gaze.
    “Are you sure?” he asked in a hoarse whisper.
    “Very,” I replied. Jax leaned down and kissed me softly before settling between my legs. He brushed his lips against my neck and whispered promises in my ear that I believed. He ran his fingers through my hair and with each sweet caress my body relaxed. Then I felt him at my entrance. I couldn’t help but tense up. As much as I wanted this to be with Jax I was still nervous.
    “I’m going to go easy. I promise. You tell me if you want me to stop.”
    I only nodded my reply. Then with one shift of his hips Jax was inside me. The pain was sharp, but brief. The muscles in Jax arms flexed as he held himself over me. I wanted to kiss the vein standing out in his neck. He was holding himself completely still, but his breathing was fast and heavy. It was the sexiest thing I’d ever seen.
    I reached up and cupped his face and ran my thumb over his lips. “You can move,” I reassured him. The excitement and passion in his blue eyes made everything tingle. I wanted to feel him move inside of me. He eased out and then slowly back in with a smooth rock of his hips. It was building inside me. The pleasure was there and I wanted to feel that again.
    “I want you. I want you to come, but I don’t think I can hold off much longer,” Jax said through clenched teeth.
    A powerful feeling coursed through me that only intensified the hot ache getting ready to explode. “I want to see you . . . come,” I told him.
    I watched his face and the heat in his eyes flared.
    Jax ducked his head and pulled one of my nipples into his mouth and began to suck. Acting on instinct I lifted my legs and pressed my knees against his sides just as the wave I had wanted to experience while Jax was inside me crashed through my body. His name tore from my lips and I grabbed his arms and held on as I arched my back off the bed and clung to him.
    “Oh fuck,” Jax groaned. Then his body began to tremble and he cried