Sea Breeze 02 - Because of Low

throat and nodded.
    “Can you show me your other toys?” Amanda asked. She knew I was having a hard time and she was trying to distract Larissa from anymore comments about her beloved aunt. Larissa stood up nodding and held out her hand to Amanda. “Come see.”
    Amanda happily followed the little chubby blond out of the room. It was like Amanda finally had a real baby doll to play with. She’d always wanted a little sister. Guess she finally got one.
    I was alone with my father. Shit.
    “You have any plans for the summer?” he asked picking a very neutral topic.
    “Online courses,” I replied, standing up and walking over to the large windows overlooking the gulf.
    “You trying to hurry up and finish?”
    “No. I’m making up for lost time.” He didn’t deserve anymore of an explanation. He’d opted out of my life. Turning around before he could say anymore I asked, “Where’s the wife?”
    “I asked her to let me do this alone.”
    “Why? Afraid I’ll hurt her feelings?”
    My father shook his head, “No, I just didn’t want her here while I visited with my kids.”
    “I’m only here for Amanda.”
    “And Larissa. I’m not a fool son. I see the way you look at her. You may not want to care about her but you do.”
    No reason to lie. “I cared about Larissa before I knew. She’s a baby. None of this is her fault.”
    “And she’s your sister.”
    “And she’s my sister,” I agreed. No point in arguing. It was the truth.
    “Have you spoken to Willow since...” he didn’t finish. He didn’t need to.
    “No.”
    He didn’t have a response for that. I started to go find the girls when his voice stopped me. “She didn’t know.”
    I froze.
    “She was devastated. She’d just figured it out. She was there, at the house, having a complete emotional breakdown when you walked in.”
    I swallowed hard. Did I want to hear this?
    “She stripped me bare by listing every person I’d hurt with my actions. She pointed out every sin I’d committed and she praised the one person who’d been left to pick up the pieces. She praised him rather passionately. How he’d been the one to hold the family I’d betrayed together. She also told me how much she loved him and how my actions and her sister’s actions were going to be the reason she lost him.”
    I grabbed hold of the chair beside me. My knees went weak. The ache from hearing Larissa ask for Willow was nothing compared to the pain searing through my chest. The things I’d said. Oh, God no .
    “She’s been left her whole life. She’s a good girl. Larissa adores her. Where her sister lacks in many honorable traits Willow seems to have them in abundance.”
    I’d left her.
    Just like she feared.
    The memory of her face when she’d walked into the bedroom that day before my sister had called. She’d looked completely broken, devastated, lost. She’d just found out. She’d come to tell me. And I’d had to leave.
    She hadn’t known.
    “What’s wrong?” Amanda ask as she walked into the room.
    I lifted my head and looked at her. “She didn’t know,” I whispered horrified as the words echoed in my head that I’d yelled at her that night as she pleaded with me to stop.
    “I never thought she did,” Amanda replied. The sadness in her voice was unmistakable. “I tried to tell you that I was pretty sure she was innocent but you wouldn’t listen to me. I wasn’t allowed to even speak her name. Every time I tried to talk to you about Willow you ended up so stupid drunk you couldn’t walk.”
    She knew as well as I did that I’d lost Low, and it was all my fault.

    Willow
    Dinner with Tawny and Jefferson hadn’t been too bad. Larissa had latched onto me and hadn’t let go. I’d even tucked her in and read to her until she fell asleep. I knew there was no way I could handle hearing her cry for me when I left. The way she’d clung to me reminded me of how I felt. Afraid I’d lose someone I loved. I wasn’t going to stay away any longer. I’d discussed with Tawny meeting her half way and getting Larissa one night a week. That way I could spend time with just her and not have to face that house again. Surprisingly Jefferson was behind the idea one hundred percent. He apparently didn’t like Larissa crying for me either. I wanted to hate him but when I watched him with Larissa it made it hard. Things happen in life and you can’t control them. It sucks and you have to move on. Holding a grudge against Tawny and Jefferson