Seduced by a Dandy ~ The first novelette from "Different Desire", a Gay Victorian Romance and Erotic novelette collection

when he said:
    “We may only have this one night together, let it last as long as possible...”
    I suppose there was some kind of logic to that, however I was reluctant to admit it. Besides , the few times I had engaged in physical activities with others , it had always been rushed , and that was all the experience I had . I had never had a lover ; however on a few occasions , I had met other men wit h the same odd longing as I had , and we had shared a short, mutual release . It had been done with hast e , and while the physical contact had been a relief, the situations had always been hurried and filled with the dread of being discovered . A kiss or two, desperate seeking hands, and a swift farewell. That was all I knew before I met Luciano , and I could not even begin to imagine what we could do together until dawn.
     
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    Never had I lusted after a man like that! Perhaps it is the dancing, which has acted like a disguised foreplay ? I wondered. When I first kissed his soft lips gently I certainly had not anti ci pated Nathaniel ’s response . I thought I h ad trapped an innocent lamb, however the way he kissed me back, ardently and desperately , told me that I did not have an entirely mild and compliant young man in my possession. In fact, I let him roughly pin me against the bedroom ’s painted wall panels as we kissed intensively . It had the most exciting effect on me and I wanted nothing else than to push him lower , pull down my breeches , and let him satisfy me.
    However , I regained control of myself, and instead I reluctantly wrapped his wri sts in my hands and removed his impatient hands from my body . He struggled a little and made a small growl of vexation , which was quite charming and also rather exciting. I felt him try my grip, straining to get loose, but I held firm. I was stronger than he was, the way I preferred ; and I tenderly explained to him we indeed had the whole night together . There was no need to rush.
    “If you promise to behave I will let y ou go,” I said gently .
    He looked at me, his hair falling down in his captivating jade-green eyes, as he pretended to pout and leaned forward.
    “ I promise ,” he whispered softly .
    I felt goose bumps form as a result of his words and closeness , and I release d him. His fair hair had escaped from where it had been tied back and now fell to his shoulder s . I did not recall pulling his shirt loose, but apparently I had. His cheeks had coloured and he actually wip ed a tiny drop of blood from his lip, investigating it. We must have kissed a little bit more roughly than I had intended . I smiled and took his hand.
    “Come over here,” I said, mainly to see if he would do as I asked . I was pleased to notice that he immediately followed my request . “Stand absolutely s till now.”
    And then I slowly and delicately started to undress him. I love d t his part. We both knew what was going to happen afterwards, but th en and there , we balanced on the perfect edge between lust and torment.
    I circled around him, removing piece after piece of fine and elegant clothes , and let them drop haphazardly to the floor. I stood in front of hi m, undoing his cravat , and moved behind him, pulling his frock coat off deliberately slowly. There was no need to hasten the experience, and it was true; I really did want this to last the entire night .
    Once he lost his control and tried to kiss me while I was unbuttoning his shi rt, however I slapped his hands and took a step awa y from him. I smiled a little at his eagerness.
    “I told y ou to stand still,” I whispered, standing behind him.
    “I am trying to ,” he replied with a strained voice, his breath already becoming uneven with excitement . I sighed in delight as I let my hands follow his naked waist and glide along his hips as I started to undo his breeches. His skin was remarkably pale and the sight of his slender but muscular chest and arms did have its effects on me. I wanted nothing more than to press myself against his back, but I did not dare to . I had a feeling of that he had very little experience and if I was to be the first to give him a whole night of plea sure, I wanted him to fully enjoy it and remember it for the rest of his life. That said, I did not entirely want to deny myself , and before I undresse d him comple tely I was curious about his preferences . I knew of course my own desire s , how I myself wanted to be satisfied, however I was not completely sure about