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mother petted my hair with gauzy hands. “We need to get my sweetheart a new dress. Something colorful. She’s prone to blacks and grays. Size four.”
    The woman, so thin her hip bones poked from her skirt like antlers, started weaving in and out of the circular racks, creating a bouquet of splashy green and blue and pink dresses.
    “This would look beautiful on you,” Amma said, holding a glittery gold top to my mother.
    “Stop it, Amma,” my mother said. “That’s tacky.”
    “Do I really remind you of my father?” I couldn’t help asking Adora. I could feel my cheeks get hot at my presumptuousness.
    “I knew you wouldn’t just let that go,” she said, touching up her lipstick in a store mirror. The gauze on her hands remained impossibly unsmeared.
    “I was just curious; I’d never heard you say my personality reminded you of…”
    “Your personality reminds me of someone very unlike me. And you certainly don’t take after Alan, so I assume it must be your father. Now, no more.”
    “But Momma, I just wanted to know…”
    “Camille, you’re making me bleed more.” She held up her bandaged hands, now pocked with red. I wanted to scratch her.
    The saleslady bumped up on us with a swatch of dresses. “This is the one you’re absolutely going to have to have,” she said, holding up a turquoise sundress. Strapless.
    “And what about sweetie-pie here,” the woman said, nodding at Amma. “She can probably already fit into our petites.”
    “Amma’s only thirteen. She’s not ready for these types of clothes,” my mother said.
    “Only thirteen, good god. I keep forgetting, she looks like such a big girl. You must be worried sick with all that’s going on in Wind Gap now.”
    My mother put an arm around Amma, kissed the top of her head. “Some days I think I won’t be able to take the worry. I want to lock her away somewhere.”
    “Like Bluebeard’s dead wives,” Amma mumbled.
    “Like Rapunzel,” my mother said. “Well, go on, Camille—show your sister how pretty you can be.”
    She trailed me into the dressing area, silent and righteous. In the little mirrored room, with my mother perched on a chair outside, I surveyed my options. Strapless, spaghetti straps, cap sleeves. My mother was punishing me. I found a pink dress with three-quarter sleeves and, quickly doffing my pants and shirt, pulled it on. The neckline was lower than I’d thought: The words on my chest looked swollen in the fluorescent light, like worms tunneled beneath my skin. Whine, milk, hurt, bleed.
    “Camille, let me see.”
    “Uh, this won’t work.”
    “Let me see.” Belittle burned on my right hip.
    “Let me try another.” I rifled through the other dresses. All just as revealing. I caught sight of myself again in the mirror. I was horrifying.
    “Camille, open the door.”
    “What’s wrong with Camille?” Amma chimed.
    “This won’t work.” The side zipper was sticking. My bared arms flashed scars in deep pink and purple. Even without looking directly in the mirror I could see them reflected at me—a big blur of scorched skin.
    “Camille,” my mother spat.
    “Why won’t she just show us?”
    “Camille.”
    “Momma, you saw the dresses, you know why they won’t work,” I urged.
    “Just let me see.”
    “I’ll try one on, Momma,” Amma wheedled.
    “Camille…”
    “Fine.” I banged open the door. My mother, her face level with my neckline, winced.
    “Oh, dear God.” I could feel her breath on me. She held up a bandaged hand, as if about to touch my chest, then let it drop. Behind her Amma whined like a puppy. “Look what you’ve done to yourself,” Adora said. “Look at it.”
    “I do.”
    “I hope you just loved it. I hope you can stand yourself.”
    She shut the door and I ripped at the dress, the zipper still jammed until my furious tugs yanked the teeth apart enough to get it to my hips, where I wriggled out, the zipper leaving a trail of pink scratches on my skin. I bunched the cotton of the dress over my mouth and screamed.
    I could hear my mother’s measured voice in the other room. When I came out, the saleswoman was wrapping a long-sleeved, high-collared lace blouse and a coral skirt that would come to my ankles. Amma stared at me, her eyes pink and darting, before leaving to stand by the car outside.
    Back at the house I trailed Adora into the entryway, where Alan stood in a falsely casual pose, hands stuffed into his linen trouser pockets. She fluttered past