Slammed

this privilege anymore, it doesn’t work.
     
    “ Chuck Norris got a g-mail account today. It’s [email protected]."
     
    It takes me a second to process. I’m normally quick with jokes, but my mind has been sluggish lately, and for good reason.
     
    “ Funny,” I reply flatly in order to appease him.
     
    “ Chuck Norris counted to infinity. Twice.”
     
    As much as I didn’t feel like laughing, I did. Nick did annoy me quite a bit, but his ignorance was endearing.
     
    When Will walks into the classroom, his eyes dart to Nick. Although he still doesn’t look at me, I like to imagine a twinge of jealousy building up inside of him. I’ve been making it a point recently, once Will comes into the room, to become more attentive toward Nick. I hate this new desire that has overcome me; the desire to make Will jealous. I know I need to stop before Nick starts to get the wrong idea, but I can’t. I feel like this is the only aspect of this entire situation that I have any control over.
     
    “ Get out your notebooks, we’re making poetry today,” Will says as he takes a seat at his desk. Half the class groans. I hear Eddie clapping.
     
    “ Can we have partners?” Nick asks as he starts inching his desk toward mine.
     
    Will glares at him. “No.”
     
    Nick shrugs and scoots his desk back into place.
     
    “ Each of you needs to write a short poem which you will perform in front of the class tomorrow.”
     
    I start taking notes on the assignment, not willing to watch him as he speaks. Remaining in his class was a very bad idea. I can't focus on anything he's saying. I'm constantly wondering what's going on inside his head, if he's thinking about us, what he does inside his house at night. Even at home he’s been the only thing I can think about. I find myself stealing glances across the street any chance I get. Honestly, if I would have just switched classes it probably wouldn't have made a difference. I would just rush home and beat him in the driveway so I could watch from the window when he pulls up to the house. This game I'm playing with myself is so exhausting. I wish I could find a way to let go of the hold he has on me. He seems to have done a pretty good job of moving on.
     
    “ You just need to start out with about ten sentences for tomorrow's presentation. We can expand over the next couple of weeks, giving you something to prepare for the slam,” Will says. “And don’t think I haven’t forgotten. So far no one in here has shown up at the slam. We made a deal.”
     
    The entire class starts to protest.
     
    “ That wasn’t the deal! You said we just had to observe. Now we have to perform?” says Gavin.
     
    “ No. Well, technically not . Everyone in here is required to attend one slam. You aren't required to perform, I just want you to observe. However, there’s a chance you could be chosen to be the sacrifice, so it wouldn't hurt to have something prepared.”
     
    Several students ask what the sacrifice is in unison. Will explains the term and how it can be anyone chosen at random. Therefore, he wants everyone to have a piece ready before the night they are to attend, just in case.
     
    “ What if we want to perform?” Eddie asks.
     
    “ I’ll tell you what. We’ll make one more deal. Whomever willingly slams will be exempt from the final.”
     
    “ Sweet, I’m in,” Eddie says.
     
    “ What if we don’t go?” Javi asks.
     
    “ Then you’re missing out on something amazing. And you get an F for participation,” he replies.
     
    Javi rolls his eyes and groans at Will's response.
     
    “ So, what kinds of things can we write about?” Eddie asks.
     
    Will moves to the front of the desk and sits, only inches from me.
     
    “ There are no rules, you can write about anything. You can write about love, food, your hobby, something significant that’s happened in your life. You can write about how much you hate your Poetry teacher. Write about anything, as long as it’s something you’re passionate about. If the audience doesn’t feel your passion, they won’t feel you—and that’s never fun, believe me.” He says this as though he speaks from experience.
     
    “ What about sex? Can we write about that?” Javi asks. It’s obvious he’s trying to push Will’s buttons. Will remains cool.
     
    “ Anything. As long as it doesn’t get you in hot water with your parents. I’ll be sending permission slips home for the slam at the end of the