Take Care, Sara

she pretended it was his chest she clutched to her instead of his robe. She pretended she wasn’t alone, she wasn’t lost, and she wasn’t without him. Sara fell asleep, knowing it might be her last night of serenity for a long, long time.
    ***
    It was snowing again. She stood in her yard, the flakes covering her and the ground. Sara held her black-gloved hand out, watching as they dropped to her palm and melted. So quickly their existence was over. They fell from the sky and ended. They were done.
    The low rumble of a diesel engine getting louder and louder drew her attention to the street. The engine cut off and silence surrounded her once more. Sara waited, watching as Lincoln approached. The bill of his olive green baseball cap shielded his eyes, but she knew they never left her as he walked toward her. Sara was always the center of his attention, without fail. He had on a brown coat with jeans and boots. His hands were shoved into his coat pockets.
    Lincoln stopped when he was almost to her, his expression unreadable. He loomed over her, his presence eradicating all others in the vicinity. “We have a tree to decorate.”
    Sara blinked. “What?” She wasn’t sure what she’d expected him to say, but that wasn’t it.
    “You and me. Charlie Brown Christmas tree. Let’s go.” Lincoln didn’t wait for an answer. He turned and strode back to the truck, opening the passenger door for her. One dark eyebrow lifted. “I’m waiting.”
    Exasperated, Sara walked toward him. “You’re obnoxious,” she told him as she got into the warm truck.
    “Thank you.” He slammed the door shut and jogged around to his side. “Here’s the deal,” Lincoln said, starting the engine. “We’re each going to only say positive things the whole time we decorate the tree and drink hot chocolate and eat popcorn.”
    “We have to do all that?”
    “Yeah. We do. We’re going to be festive .” Lincoln shot her an annoyed look, driving the truck out of town.
    “I don’t feel like being festive.”
    Lincoln made a growling sound. “I don’t care . Christmas is less than a month away.”
    Less than a week away was the deadline given to Sara for signing the papers. She briefly closed her eyes at the ache in her chest that realization brought. Not that she’d forgotten. It was always there, in the back of her mind, coating everything in misery. Don’t think about it.
    “When does it start?”
    “When does what start?”
    “The festivities and positive comments and all that.”
    “I…it starts now, Sara. Now .”
    “How long does it last?”
    Lincoln glowered at Sara and she wanted to laugh. “The whole time .”
    “ You’re not being very positive.”
    He opened his mouth as he glanced at her, quickly snapping his mouth shut as words failed him. A minute later, Lincoln said in a rough voice, “Cole made a damn good steak.”
    The urge to laugh died; her small smile with it.
    “Your turn.”
    Sara shook her head, crossing her arms, and stared at the forest of snow-encrusted trees outside her window.
    The truck lurched to a stop and Lincoln slammed the shifter into park, the engine going quiet. “You’re not being maudlin anymore, Sara. We have one week, one week , to honor him, and we’re going to fucking do it. No crying, no sad faces. In fact, we’re not even going to think about next week. We’re going to think of him the way he was before the accident. I demand it.”
    She faced him. Sara couldn’t even get angry at him or his rude tone, not after she looked at Lincoln’s face. His eyes were flashing with pain and his jaw was stiff, but his expression was fierce. He meant it. There was no denying Lincoln this. Sara wouldn’t even try.
    “Okay, Lincoln,” Sara whispered. She nodded, swallowing against the tightening of her throat.
    “Okay.” Lincoln blew out a noisy breath. “Okay. Come on.”
    Once inside Lincoln’s house, Sara gazed at the pitiful tree missing patches of pine needles and slightly drooping over. He’d set it up in front of the bay windows by the table. The tree looked so weak, but still was persisting. Maybe strength wasn’t decided by what you could do, but by what you could do without. Sara stared at it, feeling a kinship to the pathetic tree that wouldn’t give up. It was stronger than her even. It wanted to live.
    “How long do you think it will survive?”
    “I think…it will survive as long as it needs to, Sara.”
    She glanced at him. “Or as long as it wants