The Distance Between Us

Xander and I join her.
    Xander shuts both the door that leads to the outside and the one that leads to where the band members are already playing, effectively shutting out the sound. He smiles at me on the way back to his seat, and I’m mad that my heart hasn’t gotten the update yet about his girlfriend because his smile still sends it racing.
    “There are some sodas and things in the fridge if you ladies are thirsty.” He points to a stainless steel fridge in the corner then turns, holds a headset to one ear, pushes a button on the panel in front of him, and says into a microphone, “Go ahead and run through the song a few times, and I’ll let you know when we’re ready to record.”
    He lets go of the button and spins in his twisty chair to face us. It would be so much easier if Xander were less . . . less what? Confident? Attractive? Flirty?
    Yes, that last one would be nice. No matter what my brain had reminded me, Xander is a flirt. If he were my boyfriend and he was hanging out with a girl like he had been with me, I would be angry.
    “What?” Xander asks.
    “What?”
    “You’re staring at me.”
    “I am not,” I say.
    “You were. Wasn’t she?” he asks Skye.
    “Yeah, you were.”
    “Well, I’m trying to decide what you have to live for.”
    “Excuse me?”
    I gesture around this amazing studio that is sitting in his backyard . “How do you manage to get out of bed every day with such a depressing future?”
    “Actually, someone is working with me on that very problem. I hope she can help me figure out what my future holds.” That statement makes me remember why we had started hanging out in the first place. We were in the “same” situation, according to him. Maybe he just thought I understood him better than most. I didn’t. We were complete opposites.
    The door to the band room opens, and Mason slingshots himself out and flies across Skye’s and my lap, laying his head in mine. “I think we’re ready,” he says to Xander.
    “Okay.” Xander waits for a moment, probably thinking Mason is going to get up, then he nods his head toward Mason’s calf. “Nice tattoo.”
    “Thanks. Speaking of.” Mason looks at me, grabbing a strand of my hair and twirling it around his finger. I’m grateful for his attention. It makes me feel less stupid about how I’d been acting with Xander. Like he’ll see I wasn’t just pining away for him. “Was your mom being sarcastic today or do you think she really likes it?”
    “My mom isn’t the sarcastic type.”
    Mason laughs. “Really? Then how did you master the art so well? Is your dad super sarcastic?”
    As if sensing the worst topic anybody could ever bring up has been introduced, the entire band joins us in the room that already feels sweltering. My chest tightens with a longing to say, “I have no idea if my dad is sarcastic because I’ve never met the man.”
    “She wouldn’t know,” Skye says, not helping matters at all.
    “Really?” Mason asks. “You don’t know your dad? What’s the story there?”
    I shift, wondering how I can joke my way out of this topic.
    Xander looks at his watch. “Guys, I’m on a schedule here. Let’s get this thing pounded out.” He catches my eye for a split second, proving he did that just for me.
    Mason rolls off the couch seeming to forget my dad as easily as he brought him up. I wish I could forget him that easily.
    The band plays in front of us, like a silent movie, Xander wearing the headphones and making adjustments on the knobs and slides. I’m not sure what those adjustments do, but he obviously knows. Skye stands and helps herself to a soda from the fridge. “Want one?” she asks.
    “I’m good.”
    She rejoins me on the couch. “How’re you doing?”
    “Fine.”
    “I get it, by the way.”
    “Get what?”
    “Him. I get why you like him. There’s something about him.” She points at Xander’s back. Even though we’re not talking very loud and Xander has the headphones on I want to shush her.
    “I told you. It’s over. His girlfriend is an actress, Skye.”
    She rolls her eyes. “Actresses are overrated. Fight for him.”
    I stand, needing to work off some nervous energy. “It’s not a competition when one person has already won.”
    Xander’s phone rings from where it sits on the table next to the door. He obviously doesn’t hear it because he doesn’t react at all. I’m standing less than five feet from his phone, so I give in to my curiosity and look at