The Shadow Hunter

be poor.”
    “Was that ever an issue?”
    “Poor is a relative term. Poor by my standards might be rich by somebody else’s. We’ll have all we need.”
    “And what will Kris have?”
    Howard turned away. “You don’t have to worry about Kris.”
    He found his shirt and shrugged it on. He felt better when he was not bare-chested. As a younger man he had been proud of his muscular torso, but now his pecs were sagging and his abdomen had loosened as his waistline expanded. He was out of shape. He didn’t like to look in the mirror anymore. Or maybe there were other reasons why he preferred not to look at himself.
    Outside, the siren of an emergency vehicle—police car, ambulance, fire engine—caterwauled down some nearby street. Sirens were a constant background noise in this neighborhood. Howard thought of the crash of the surf on the Malibu sand, the only noise he ever heard from the deck of the beach house, and briefly he wondered what he was doing in this place.
    Well, it was a little late to be asking that question, wasn’t it? Already he had set in motion a chain of events that would free him from his marital obligations and his life in Malibu. At times he might regret the course he’d taken, but he could not undo what he had done. There was no turning back.
    “What?” Amanda asked.
    He realized he had spoken the last thought aloud. “Nothing,” he said, buttoning his shirt.
    “Okay, be secretive. It’s irritating, but manly in a reserved, nineteenth-century sort of way.”
    She rolled onto her side, showing her back to him. Tattooed above the left cheek of her buttocks was a red rose. Howard hadbeen fascinated the first time he’d seen it. He had been with many women, but never one with a tattoo. It had seemed exotic and arousing. Now he regarded it with indifference and the faintest touch of condescension. He wondered if he regarded Amanda herself the same way.
    No, of course not. Where had that thought come from? He was serious about Amanda. She was exactly what he needed. She was young. She had energy, ambition, confidence. She talked fast and proposed a thousand ideas an hour. And she was—what was the word?—adventurous. Sexually adventurous, not to put too fine a point on it. She did things with enthusiasm, things Kris would have been reluctant or unwilling to do at all.
    He remembered his first night with Amanda—how she had teased his pants down around his knees and taken him into her mouth, drawing him out to full extension with her tongue, and in that moment he had been twenty years old again, not a man in middle age with hair on his earlobes and a potbelly that left him winded when he climbed a flight of stairs.
    Not that their whole relationship was about sex. Far from it. They had conversations. Take tonight, for instance. He had talked with her for most of the evening over an anchovy pizza and a bottle of Merlot. Only afterward had they retreated into the bedroom for a different kind of intimacy. What he was doing with Amanda was no cheap fling. It was an affair of the heart. It had to be.
    Yawning elaborately, Amanda slipped out of bed and brushed past him into the bathroom. She poured a glass of water and drank a long swallow before fussing with her hair. Unlike him, she had no problem with mirrors. He liked the trim economy of her body, her small breasts with their stiff nipples, her tight thighs and the tight space between them, a space he had grown to know well over the past six months.
    He had met her during a visit to KPTI, months ago. He had flirted, she’d responded. He was incapable of resisting temptation. Sometimes he told himself that Kris must have been familiar withhis weakness, and if she had chosen to marry him anyway, she had known what was she getting into. As a rationalization it was not much good, but it was the best he could do.
    The truth was that he had loved Kris once, but the feeling had ebbed. He supposed she’d been right when she said that for him, a woman’s novelty wore off and she became another discarded toy. But there were always more toys to be bought if a man had the money…and if his previous possessions didn’t weigh him down.
    “She suspects, you know,” Amanda said from the bathroom.
    Howard, who had been hunting for his shoes amid the tangled bedspread on the floor, looked up in bewilderment. “What did you say?”
    “She thinks you may be having an affair. She told me so.”
    The world seemed to freeze around him, or maybe it