The White Tiger

scratched and bruised face, I came tumbling out the front door. It slammed behind me.
    Vitiligo-Lips hadn’t waited. I had to take a bus back home; I was rubbing my head the whole time. Seven thousand rupees—I wanted to cry! Do you know how many water buffaloes you could have bought for that much money? —I could feel Granny’s fingers wringing my ears.
    Back in Buckingham Towers at last—after a one-hour traffic jam on the road—I washed the wound on my head in the common sink, and then spat a dozen times. To hell with everything—I scratched my groin. I needed that. I slouched toward my room, kicked opened the door, and froze.
    Someone was inside the mosquito net. I saw a silhouette in the lotus position.
    “Don’t worry, Balram. I know what you were doing.”
    A man’s voice. Well, at least it wasn’t Granny—that was my first thought.
    Mr. Ashok lifted up a corner of the net and looked at me, a sly grin on his face.
    “I know exactly what you were doing.”
    “Sir?”
    “I was calling your name and you weren’t responding. So I came down to see. But I know exactly what you were doing…that other driver, the man with pink lips, he told me.”
    My heart pounded. I looked down at the ground.
    “He said you were at the temple, offering prayers for my health.”
    “Yes, sir,” I said, with sweat pouring down my face in relief. “That’s right, sir.”
    “Come inside the net,” he said softly. I went in and sat next to him inside the mosquito net. He was looking at the roaches walking above us.
    “You live in such a hole, Balram. I never knew. I’m sorry.”
    “It’s all right, sir. I’m used to it.”
    “I’ll give you some money, Balram. You go into some better housing tomorrow, okay?”
    He caught my hand and turned it over. “Balram, what are all these red marks on your palm? Have you been pinching yourself?”
    “No, sir…it’s a skin disease. I’ve got it here too, behind my ear—see—all those pink spots?”
    He came close, filling my nostrils with his perfume. Bending my ear with a finger, gently, he looked.
    “My. I never noticed. I sit behind you every day and I never—”
    “A lot of people have this disease, sir. A lot of poor people.”
    “Really. I haven’t noticed. Can you get it treated?”
    “No, sir. The diseases of the poor can never get treated. My father had TB and it killed him.”
    “It’s the twenty-first century, Balram. Anything can be treated. You go to the hospital and get it treated. Send me the bill, I’ll pay it.”
    “Thank you, sir,” I said. “Sir…do you want me to take you somewhere in the City?”
    He opened his lips and then closed them without making any noise. He did this a couple of times, and then he said, “My way of living is all wrong, Balram. I know it, but I don’t have the courage to change it. I just don’t have…the balls. ”
    “Don’t think so much about it, sir. And sir, let’s go upstairs, I beg you. This is not a place for a man of quality like yourself.”
    “I let people exploit me, Balram. I’ve never done what I’ve wanted, my whole life. I…”
    His head sagged; his whole body looked tired and worn.
    “You should eat something, sir,” I said. “You look tired.”
    He smiled—a big, trusting baby’s smile.
    “You’re always thinking of me, Balram. Yes, I want to eat. But I don’t want to go to another hotel, Balram. I’m sick of hotels. Take me to the kind of place you go to eat, Balram.”
    “Sir?”
    “I’m sick of the food I eat, Balram. I’m sick of the life I lead. We rich people, we’ve lost our way, Balram. I want to be a simple man like you, Balram.”
    “Yes, sir.”
    We walked outside, and I led him across the road and into a tea shop.
    “Order for us, Balram. Order the commoners’ food.”
    I ordered okra, cauliflower, radish, spinach, and daal. Enough to feed a whole family, or one rich man.
    He ate and burped and ate some more.
    “This food is fantastic. And just twenty-five rupees! You people eat so well!”
    When he was done, I ordered him a lassi, and when he took the first sip, he smiled. “I like eating your kind of food!”
    I smiled and thought, I like eating your kind of food too.
     
    “The divorce papers will come through soon. That’s what the lawyer said.”
    “All right.”
    “Should we start looking already?”
    “For another lawyer?”
    “No. For another girl.”
    “It’s too early, Mukesh. It’s been just three months since she left.”
    I had