The Whore's Child
tell, without having to look up from the map, that she was studying me. âI didnât have to bring you with me, you know,â she finally said.
âAll I said wasââ
âI heard you,â she assured me. âLoud and clear.â
This was not a long conversation, but it was long enough if one of the speakers was driving a car and staring the other speaker down instead of keeping her eyes on the road.
A few minutes later we passed a sign welcoming us to the Commonwealth of Massachusetts. âThere,â she said. âSee?â
Sure enough, Massachusetts was right where she said it would be, and we were now two complete states away from my father.
After an hour or so, we stopped for gas, and my mother had the attendant, who wasnât much older than I was, check the oil. I watched him. He opened the hood, stood there for several beats out of respect, then slammed it shut again.
âItâs cheaper to pump our own,â I said.
âThatâs true, sweetie, but we canât afford to break down.â Sheâd taken the map book from me and was running her index finger along our route.
âCould you not call me that?â I said. I didnât mind it in private, just in social situations like the present one, when a teenager with a real job was hovering at the periphery of our conversation.
She didnât look up. âWhat should I call youâConan?â
Which meant sheâd found the comic books Iâd hidden on the top shelf of my bedroom closet. âMy name?â I suggested.
âAll right, John Dern,â she said. âHereâs the plan. Weâre getting off the interstate for a while. See some of this country, since we got to drive through the whole damn thing anyway.â
Now I watched her. âI thought you said he wouldnât come after us.â
âHe wonât,â she assured me, watching the cars roar by up on the interstate. âHe might report the car stolen, though. Technically itâs his.â
âTechnically,â I repeated.
âI think of it as half mine. Everything in marriage should be half and half, donât you think?â
âThat makes
me
half his,â I pointed out.
âEverything except you, sweetie,â she said. âYou hungry?â It was noon and we hadnât even eaten breakfast. âThereâs a Burger Doodle across the street if youâre starving.â
Burger Doodle was her name for any fast food outlet, and she held them all in contempt. âPersonally,â she said, âIâm too psyched for food. Iâm gorging myself on freedom. Iâm dining on air. Doesnât the air taste different today, sweetie?â
She was right. Where we were sitting, it tasted like diesel exhaust. When I offered no opinion, she started the car and put it in gear, then looked over at me. âDoesnât the air taste different today,
John Dern
?â
âIâm starved,â I said, though I wasnât. The gasoline fumes were nauseating me. âWe didnât even have breakfast.â
She sighed, staring across the road at the golden arches.
She ordered me two cheeseburgers, fries and a large Coke. For herself, just coffee, but before long she took a French fry, then another. When I began to slow down, midway through the second burger, she pointed a long, drooping fry at me and said, âI hope youâre enjoying this. Because weâre not Burger Doodling all the damn way to California.â
We made it, that first night, to Waterbury, Connecticut. My motherâs mood stayed buoyant the entire afternoon, as if she really was high on the pure oxygen of freedom. But she crashed shortly after we checked in and I think it was our room that did it. Sheâd opted for the smallest of several motels near the exit. âIndependently owned and run,â she explained. âTheyâre always cleaner and cheaper and better than the chains.â It mightâve been cheaper, but the room also was tiny and dingy, and bands of lines scrolled down the television screen on every channel. When I came out of the bathroom, I caught her counting our money at the end of one of the beds, and based on the look on her face I guessed that weâd spent more than sheâd planned to that first day.
But there was a fancy-looking restaurant across the street, and she insisted on having dinner there to celebrate our first night of freedom. She
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