Villette

lifted. Folding a shawl round her, I carried her back to the drawing-room. Graham was just coming out.
    »She cannot sleep without seeing and speaking to you once more,« I said. »She does not like the thought of leaving you.«
    »I've spoilt her,« said he, taking her from me with good humour, and kissing her little hot face and burning lips. »Polly, you care for me more than for papa, now –«
    »I
do
care for you, but you care nothing for me,« was her whisper.
    She was assured to the contrary, again kissed, restored to me, and I carried her away; but, alas! not soothed.
    When I thought she could listen to me I said –
    »Paulina, you should not grieve that Graham does not care for you so much as you care for him. It must be so.«
    Her lifted and questioning eyes asked why.
    »Because he is a boy and you are a girl; he is sixteen and you are only six; his nature is strong and gay, and yours is otherwise.«
    »But I love him so much; he
should
love me a little.«
    »He does. He is fond of you. You are his favourite.«
    »Am I Graham's favourite?«
    »Yes, more than any little child I know.«
    The assurance soothed her; she smiled in her anguish.
    »But,« I continued, »don't fret, and don't expect too much of him, or else he will feel you to be troublesome, and then it is all over.«
    »All over!« she echoed softly, »then I'll be good. I'll try to be good, Lucy Snowe.«
    I put her to bed.
    »Will he forgive me this one time?« she asked, as I undressed myself. I assured her that he would; that as yet he was by no means alienated; that she had only to be careful for the future.
    »There is no future,« said she: »I am going. Shall I ever – ever – see him again, after I leave England?«
    I returned an encouraging response. The candle being extinguished, a still half-hour elapsed. I thought her asleep, when the little white shape once more lifted itself in the crib, and the small voice asked, – »Do you like Graham, Miss Snowe?«
    »Like him! Yes, a little.«
    »Only a little! Do you like him as I do?«
    »I think not. No. Not as you do.«
    »Do you like him much?«
    »I told you I liked him a little. Where is the use of caring for him so very much: he is full of faults.«
    »Is he?«
    »All boys are.«
    »More than girls?«
    »Very likely. Wise people say it is folly to think anybody perfect; and as to likes and dislikes, we should be friendly to all, and worship none.«
    »Are you a wise person?«
    »I mean to try to be so. Go to sleep.«
    »I
cannot
go to sleep. Have you no pain just here« (laying her elfish hand on her elfish breast), »when you think
you
shall have to leave Graham; for
your
home is not here?«
    »Surely, Polly,« said I, »you should not feel so much pain when you are very soon going to rejoin your father. Have you forgotten him? Do you no longer wish to be his little companion?«
    Dead silence succeeded this question.
    »Child, lie down and sleep,« I urged.
    »My bed is cold,« said she. »I can't warm it.«
    I saw the little thing shiver. »Come to me,« I said, wishing, yet scarcely hoping, that she would comply: for she was a most strange, capricious, little creature, and especially whimsical with me. She came, however, instantly, like a small ghost gliding over the carpet. I took her in. She was chill; I warmed her in my arms. She trembled nervously; I soothed her. Thus tranquillized and cherished she at last slumbered.
    »A very unique child,« thought I, as I viewed her sleeping countenance by the fitful moonlight, and cautiously and softly wiped her glittering eyelids and her wet cheeks with my handkerchief. »How will she get through this world, or battle with this life? How will she bear the shocks and repulses, the humiliations and desolations, which books, and my own reason tell me are prepared for all flesh.«
    She departed the next day; trembling like a leaf when she took leave, but exercising self-command.
     
     
Chapter IV
Miss Marchmont
    On quitting Bretton, which I did a few weeks after Paulina's departure – little thinking then I was never again to visit it: never more to tread its calm old streets – I betook myself home, having been absent six months. It will be conjectured that I was of course glad to return to the bosom of my kindred. Well! the amiable conjecture does no harm, and may therefore be safely left uncontradicted. Far from saying nay, indeed, I will permit the reader to picture me, for the next eight years, as a bark slumbering through halcyon