Wild Invitation

went rigid and silent when he understood he’d lost another maternal figure, it’s on me and it always will be.”
    “Don’t you let her evil eat away at you,” his mate said, her hands cupping his cheeks, forcing him to hold eyes of wolf amber grim with purpose. “You aren’t superhuman—and you aren’t a foreseer, that you could predict the future. You made the best choice in the situation you were in.”
    Claws pricked his face as her wolf rose closer to the surface. “Yelene’s cowardice belongs to her alone. When she was asked to take a stand, she broke, while you put your life on the line and did everything in your power to protect your family. Remember
that
, not a woman who saved her skin and lost everything else.”
    When he would’ve spoken, Lara shook her head, voice steely as she continued. “You
will
forgive yourself.” It was a command. “Because if you don’t, your unnecessary guilt will taint your happiness—and Walker? The children take their cues from you. If you don’t step fully into the light, neither will they.”
    Trembling because he knew she was right, he pressed his forehead to hers. “I want them to misbehave,” he whispered. “I want them to talk back to us and throw tantrums.” The children were both so good that he worried some part of them feared another terrible rejection. “When they do, I might just start to believe they’ll be okay.”
    Lara’s lips curved, the emotion in her smile a punch to the gut. “It’ll happen. Have faith in their strength and our love.” Claws retreating, she patted his cheek. “They do have Sienna as an example, after all.”
    And his niece had been a “devil child,” according to Aisha (who had a soft spot for said devil child after all the dishwashing Sienna had done in the kitchens in recompense for her misdeeds). “They’ll have to work hard to beat her record of punishments.” He’d never admit it to Sienna, but some of her now infamous stunts had made him want to grin with pride.
    “I put my money on Marlee,” Lara said. “There’s a bit of ‘devil child’ in her, too, according to my mother, bubbling under the surface.”
    Walker rubbed his jaw. “I’ve heard it’s the quiet ones you have to watch out for.” Lara had murmured that to him in a voice hoarse from screaming her pleasure not long ago. “I’m backing Toby.”
    “You’re on, Mr. Lauren.” Claws running lightly over his back, her smile softening and gentling. “It’s all right, Walker. Let go of the past. It has no claim on you anymore.”
    He knew he was too heavy for her, but he shuddered and covered her body with his own, her arms and legs comingaround him, one of her hands stroking through his hair. “It’s all right, darling,” she said again. “It’s all right.”
    Embraced by her on every level, the warmth of her within his very heart, Walker did what his mate had ordered and broke the final rusty chain that tied him to the life he’d lived before defection…taking the first steps on the road to forgiveness.

Chapter 9
    BUOYED BY A bone-deep feeling of rightness, Walker finished a phone conversation with the mate of the leopard healer the following day, then went to supervise an outdoor exercise. It was a half hour into it that Hawke appeared beside him. The alpha’s eyebrow rose when he spotted the three pups, two male and one female, sitting cross-legged on the grass, faces set and arms folded. “Why aren’t those three participating?”
    “It’s a punishment.” Walker had learned very quickly that changeling kids
hated
missing out on a physical activity. “I’ve had some problems since the evacuees returned to the den.” It had disturbed the children to be shuttled off, to worry in safety while their families and packmates fought, were hurt. “A few of the pups think they should’ve stayed behind and helped.”
    Shoving a hand through hair the same unique silver-gold as his fur in wolf form, Hawke blew out a breath. “Future dominants, I’m guessing. Hard for them to accept being protected in a situation where they know their packmates are standing in the line of fire.”
    Walker understood in a way the pups couldn’t comprehend. It had been brutal for him to leave the den when Lara, Sienna, and Judd remained behind. But it had been necessary, his strength needed to provide a shield for their most vulnerable. “Do you want to speak to them?”
    “You’re their handler; your call.”
    “Leave it to me.”