With Abandon: With or Without, Book 4

relationship back. They hadn’t spoken since they left the apartment several hours ago, and Matt still didn’t know what to think about it. He didn’t like the idea of lying, but he liked the idea of Aubrey being mad at him even less. How pathetic was that?
    “Are you sure you’re okay?”
    Matt nodded.
    “Sugar, you’re sumthin’ else.” Wrapping his arms around Matt’s waist, Aubrey kissed him.
    Matt froze. Aubrey wasn’t still upset with him?
    Aubrey trailed kisses down his chin. He tugged loose Matt’s tie and nipped his neck.
    Matt cupped the back of Aubrey’s head. Should he push him away or hold him closer? If he could
    make this evening disappear, he would. “Should we do this? I mean here? What if—?”
    “Shh…” Aubrey touched Matt’s lips with the tip of his finger. “It’s okay. I locked the door.” He
    rested his head against Matt’s chest for several long seconds, just holding him close.
    It was awkward at first, but Matt hugged back. Maybe things would be okay. He closed his eyes and
    rested his chin on the top of Aubrey’s head, inhaling the coconut smell of shampoo and the underlying
    scent that was Aubrey. He wanted to stay like this forever. The feel of his mate in his arms was reassuring.
    If Aubrey was hugging him, then they were okay. Right?
    Aubrey loosened his hold and began fumbling with Matt’s jacket. After getting it undone and open, he
    pushed the vest up out of the way and unfastened the pants.
    “What are—?”
    Aubrey tapped his hip. “Lift.”
    “Huh?” Matt raised his butt off the seat. “What are—?”
    Aubrey fumbled with the fastening on Matt’s pants. He gripped Matt’s cock with one hand and
    shoved his pants and underwear around his thighs.
    “Uh.” The scent of Aubrey’s arousal slammed into Matt, making his cock harden in Aubrey’s hand.
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    Aubrey’s mouth closed over his dick.
    “Ohmigod. What’re you doing?” Matt stared down at Aubrey’s blond head and wide shoulders. He
    couldn’t believe Aubrey was doing this here. But then his body took over and he decided he didn’t care when, where or how. He laid his head back on the chair and stared up at the ceiling. Would it always feel this incredible? Would this always make his brain cease to function?
    As if in answer, Aubrey went all the way down till his lips touched the base of Matt’s cock.
    The sensation sent Matt reeling. His balls pulled tight, and his back arched off the seat, trying to get closer. He gripped the arms of the chair to keep from melting into a puddle at his mate’s feet.
    Aubrey used his hand and mouth to drive Matt crazy. He sucked, swirling his tongue around the head
    a few times, and squeezed with his hand. His other hand gripped Matt’s hip, and his thumb rubbed over
    Matt’s hipbone. Back and forth he caressed in time with his mouth. He made a little humming noise of
    approval.
    Matt was drunk off the earthy smell of his mate’s arousal and those hot lips dragging up and down his
    cock. His canines shifted so abruptly they pierced his bottom lip. Oddly the pain did nothing to stifle the intense pleasure. He was close to coming, and he tried to distract himself with something…anything. He
    wanted this to go on forever, but his brain couldn’t come up with a single thing to transfer his focus from his dick. Opening his eyes was a huge mistake.
    With his lips stretching around Matt’s cock, Aubrey met his gaze.
    Matt braced himself, still trying to hold back, but it was no use. His orgasm washed over him like a
    tidal wave. He stared into those beloved eyes and sank deeper and deeper. Sensation after sensation
    buffeted him, making him tense up. His balls emptied into Aubrey’s loving mouth in a gush, but Aubrey
    never even blinked. He just kept milking Matt’s cock with his lips and tongue.
    Matt couldn’t look away. The intimacy connected him to his mate. Whatever it took he couldn’t lose
    this. He touched Aubrey’s cheek. I love you. He didn’t say it aloud. He didn’t know how Aubrey would take the declaration, and he couldn’t accept anything other than the same declaration in return, even if it was only between them.
    Aubrey squeezed his eyes tight and let Matt’s cock slip from his mouth. He rested his head on Matt’s
    thigh. His breath came in rough pants and a strangled groan. The scent of sex lingered around him.
    The thought that Aubrey wouldn’t return those words scared him worse