A Maidens Grave

minute then the generic instrument turned into the bagpipe he remembered from years ago and the tune became “Amazing Grace,” the traditional song played at the funerals of fallen policemen.

8:45 P.M.
    Arthur Potter thought about the nature of silence.
    Sitting in the medical tent. Staring at the floor as medics attended to his burnt arms and hands.
    Days and weeks of silence. Silence thicker than wood, perpetual silence. Is that what Melanie’s day-to-day life was like?
    He himself had known quiet. An empty house. Sunday mornings, filled only with the faint tapping of household motors and pumps. Still summer afternoons by himself on a back porch. But Potter was a man who lived in a state of anticipation and for him the silence was, on good days at least, the waiting state before his life might begin again—when he would meet someone like Marian, when he would find someone other than takers and terrorists and psychos with whom he might share his thoughts.
    Someone like Melanie? he wondered.
    No, of course not.
    He felt a chill on the back of his hand and watched the medic apply some kind of ointment, which had the effect of dulling most of the stinging immediately.
    Arthur Potter thought of Melanie’s photograph, saw it hanging over the diagram of the slaughterhouse. He thought of his reaction when he understood, a few minutes ago, that Handy was going to kill another hostage. She was the first person in his mind.
    He stretched. A joint somewhere in his back popped softly and he admonished himself: Don’t be a damn fool . . . .
    But in another part of his lavish mind Arthur Potter English-lit major thought, If we have to be foolish it ought to be in love. Not in our careers, where lives hang in the balance; not with our gods or in our lust for beauty and learning. Not with our children, so desirous and so unsure. But in love. For love is nothing but the purest folly and we go there for the purpose of being impassioned and half-crazy. In matters of the heart the world will always be generous with us, and forgiving.
    Then he laughed to himself and shook his head as reality descended once more—like the dull ache that returned along his seared arms. She’s twenty-five—less than half your age. She’s deaf, both lower- and upper-case. And, for heaven’s sake, it’s your wedding anniversary today. Twenty-three years. Not a single one missed. Enough nonsense. Get back to the command van. Get to work.
    The medic tapped him on the shoulder. Potter looked up, startled.
    “You’re all set, sir.”
    “Yes, thank you.”
    He rose and walked unsteadily back to the van.
     
    A figure appeared in the doorway.
    Potter looked up at Peter Henderson. “You all right?” the SAC asked.
    He nodded cautiously. Tremain might have been the main perp but Potter would have bet a week’s salary that Henderson had played some role in the assault. Ambition? A desire to get back at the Bureau, which betrayed him? Yet this would be even harder to prove than the existence of the suspected gas bomb in the generator. Forensics of the heart are always elusive.
    Henderson looked at the burns. “You’ll get yourself a medal for this.”
    “My first wound in the line of duty.” Potter smiled.
    “Arthur, I just wanted to apologize for losing my temper before. It gets dull down here. I was hoping for some action. You know how it is.”
    “Sure, Pete.”
    “I miss the old days.”
    Potter shook the man’s hand. They talked about Joe Silbert and his fellow reporters. They’d refer the matter to the U.S. attorney but concluded there was probably nothing to hold them for. Obstruction of justice is a tricky charge and absent interfering with an ongoing criminal prosecution judges usually come down on the side of the First Amendment. Potter had contented himself by walking ominously up to Silbert, who stood in a circle of troopers, cool as a captured revolutionary leader. The agent had told him that he was going to cooperate in every way with the widow of the dead trooper, who would undoubtedly be bringing a multimillion-dollar wrongful-death action against the TV station and Silbert and Biggins personally.
    “I intend to be a plaintiff’s witness,” Potter explained to the reporter, whose facade cracked momentarily, revealing beneath it a very scared, middle-aged man of questionable talents and paltry liquidity.
    The negotiator now sat back in his chair and gazed at the slaughterhouse through the yellow window.
    “How many