Fear: A Gone Novel

stuff … would calm the panic.
    Until the next panic.
    There was another thing, very different from the sparkly sunlit dust, that reached tendrils through the air, passing through objects, rising sometimes like smoke from the floor and other times like a slow, pale green whip.
    When Lana came the green whip would follow her, reaching to touch her, sliding away, reaching again, insistent.
    And sometimes Cigar felt it was looking for him. It had no eyes. It couldn’t see him. But it sensed something … something that interested it.
    When it came close to him he would have visions of Penny. He would have visions of himself doing terrible, sickening things to her.
    Making her suffer.
    He wondered if the rising smoke, the slow green whip, this stuff, could give him power over Penny. He wondered if he said yes—Yes, reach me; here I am—if then he would be able to get revenge on Penny.
    But Cigar’s thoughts never lasted for very long. He would put together pictures in his head; then they would fly apart like an exploding jigsaw puzzle.
    At times the little boy would come.
    It wasn’t easy to see the little boy. The little boy always stayed just to the side. Cigar would sense his presence and look toward him, but no matter how quickly he moved his head, Cigar could never see the little boy clearly. It was like seeing someone through a narrow opening in a door. It was a glimpse, and then the little boy would be gone.
    More madness.
    If you had inhuman eyes and a shattered mind, how could you ever know what was real and what was not?
    Cigar realized he had to stop trying. It didn’t matter, did it? Did anyone ever really see what was there around them? Were regular eyes so perfect or normal minds so clear? Who was to say that what Cigar saw wasn’t as real as what he had seen in the old days?
    Weren’t regular eyes blind to all sorts of things? To X-rays and radiation and colors off beyond the visible spectrum?
    The little boy had put that thought in his head.
    There he was now, Cigar realized. Just outside of view. A suggestion of a presence. Right there where even Cigar could not see.
    Cigar’s thoughts fell to pieces again.
    He stood up and made his way to the door that vibrated and pulsed and called to him.
    There was a knock on Penny’s door.
    Penny did not fear a knock at the door. She opened it without even checking the peephole.
    Caine stood framed by silvery moonlight in the door.
    “We have to talk,” Caine said.
    “It’s the middle of the night.”
    He came in without waiting for an invitation. “First things first: if I see anything I don’t like, even so much as a flea, anything that comes from your sick imagination, Penny, I won’t hesitate. I’ll throw you through the nearest wall. And then I’ll drop the wall on top of you.”
    “Hello to you, too. Your Highness.” She closed the door.
    He was already sitting, flopping down in her favorite chair. Like he owned the place. He had brought a candle. He lit it with a Bic and set it on the table. So very Caine: he would arrange to be dramatically lit, even though candles were rarer than diamonds in the FAYZ.
    King Caine.
    Penny swallowed the rage that threatened to boil over. She would make him crawl. Make him scream and scream!
    She said, “I know why you’re here.”
    “Turk said you were ready to get real, Penny. He said you wanted to negotiate some terms. Fair enough. So spit it out.”
    “Look,” Penny said, “I screwed up with Cigar. And I know what happens if the food supply dries up. I’m not as pretty as Diana, but that doesn’t mean I’m stupid.”
    “Okay,” he said cautiously.
    “So, like I told Turk to tell you, I’m going to leave town. I already packed a few things.” She gestured to a backpack lying in one corner. “I just don’t think it should look like you made me go, because then it’s like Quinn won. I think I should make it be like I just chose on my own to leave.”
    Caine stared at her, obviously trying to figure out what she was up to.
    Penny showed a little anger then. “Hey, I’m not happy about it, all right? But I’ll get by. Believe it or not I can survive without you, King Caine.”
    “Take all the food you want,” he said.
    “How generous of you,” she snapped. “The deal is I leave, but you have to make sure I don’t starve. Once a week I’ll meet Bug out on the highway, right by the overturned FedEx truck. If I need something he brings it. That’s my demand for leaving and making