Frankenstein

hand was worth two in the bush. Jocko preferred the two in the bush. In Louisiana, birds attacked him on sight. Savagely. Pecking, screeching, pecking. Jocko remained wary of birds.
    A monster. A screwup.
    Worse. A coward. Jocko was easily frightened by so many things. Birds. Coyotes. Cougars. Runaway horses. Rap music. His own face. Brussels sprouts. The television.
    The TV was super scary. Not when it was turned on and you could watch shows. When it was
off
. The blank TV was a big mean eye. TV watched Jocko when it was off.
    Erika kept a folded blanket atop the TV. When the TV was off,she covered it with the blanket. The eye was still open. Open under the blanket. But at least it couldn’t see Jocko.
    Monster. Screwup. Coward. And when alone, he couldn’t stop moving, doing. Fidgeting. Severe hyperactivity disorder. He read it in a book.
    Yet Jocko continued to be enormously happy. Hugely happy. So happy he needed to pee frequently. He was happy because he was seldom alone these days. He and Erika formed a blissful family in this small house on forty acres of meadows and woods.
    Made in Victor’s creation tanks, Erika was sterile, like all her maker’s New Orleans creations. But she still had an urge to mother someone. Victor would have killed her if he’d been aware of it.
    Victor said families were dangerous. People were more loyal to their families than to their rulers. Victor wanted no divided loyalties among his creations.
    Erika called Jocko “little one.” She also called him Sparky when he was too fidgety to sit still.
    She sometimes called him Tiny Tim when he was calm. Calm and sitting in an armchair, just reading. They read books a lot. Sitting in their armchairs. In their pretty little house.
    Maybe outside it snowed. Or rained. Or just wind, blowing. But inside—armchairs and books and often hot chocolate.
    After an hour of running up and down stairs, Jocko grew worried. Erika should have returned. She went into town for cinnamon rolls.
    Something happened to her. Maybe hit by a truck. Maybe hit by two trucks. Maybe rap music.
    Maybe a bear got her. There were grizzly bears. Bears in the woods. Jocko had never seen one. But they were
there
. The woods were a bear toilet.
    Maybe Jocko was now alone in the world.
    When the maybes started, they didn’t stop.
    Jocko hurried to the front door. It was flanked with sidelights. Beyond lay the front porch.
    He looked out the left sidelight. Beyond the porch: the long gravel driveway. Leading out of sight to the county road. No car.
    Jocko peeked through the right sidelight. Same porch, same driveway, still no car.
    Left sidelight. Right sidelight. Left, right, left, right.
    A window in the top third of the door. Above Jocko’s head. He jumped, glimpsed the porch, driveway, no car. Jumped. No car. Jumped. No car.
    Left sidelight, jump, right sidelight, jump, left sidelight, jump: no car, no car, no car, no car, no car.
    Maybe he shouldn’t hope to see Erika’s car approaching. Maybe he would hope and hope and hope, and it would appear, but it would be driven by a bear.
    Erika must be dead. She would be home by now if she wasn’t dead. Jocko was alone in the world again. Alone with the blanket-draped TV. And bears watching from the woods. And birds circling in the sky.
    Without her, he would have to live in sewers again. In storm drains. Coming out at night for food. Sneaking along dark alleys.
    He was a monster. People didn’t like monsters. They would beat him with buckets, shovels, with whatever was near at hand. They had beaten him before, when he’d struggled to live on his own and people came upon him by accident. Buckets, shovels, brooms, umbrellas, canes, lengths of chain and garden hoses, large pepperoni sausages.
    He whimpered with grief and fear. His whimpering scared him.
    To distract himself, to avoid a full-blown emotional crisis, Jockopirouetted. Pirouetted room to room. Then cartwheeled through the house. He juggled red rubber balls. Juggled fruit. Juggled vegetables. He hurried up and down the stairs on his hands. Up and down, up and down. He rearranged the contents of all the cabinets in the kitchen—and then put everything back where it belonged. He opened a bag of dried pinto beans and counted them. Then he counted them by twos. By threes.
    Still, Erika did not return.

    
chapter
16

    Carson and Michael owned a pale-yellow Victorian house with gingerbread millwork painted blue. The place looked as though it had been