From Here to Paternity

plum-blossomish.“
    “It must have corn tortillas torn up in it,“ Shelley said, taking a bite from Jane’s overloaded plate. “They have that plum-blossom taste. Mmmm. That’s wonderful!“
    “Glad you think so. You can beat up the chef, then. It’s much more your line.“
    Shelley grinned. “I’ve never laid violent hands on a chef. Yet. I save that for IRS agents.“
    It was a festive evening, in spite of the recent death of the resort owner. Jane even noticed Joanna looking in the doorway of the restaurant once, smiling as if genuinely pleased at how well she was managing to implement her husband’s last wishes that his death be ignored.
    What a strange, strange marriage they’d had, Jane thought. But then, she’d always thought that nearly every marriage, if examined closely enough, would look strange to anyone but the two main participants. Perhaps that was one of the elements that contributed to the increase in the divorce rate, she speculated. Too many people who expected their own marriage to be like what they assumed others were, rather than just accepting the inherent individual weirdnesses of the situation.
    She almost mentioned this thought, then decided that discussing marriage in front of Mel might lead him to the erroneous conclusion that she was hinting at something she wasn’t.
    This led to deeper thoughts. She watched him as he chatted with Shelley and the boys, who had condescended to sit at the same table with the adults. Denise and Katie had, of course, insisted on sitting by themselves at the far end of the room. They were horrified that someone might discover that they had parents. Mel was telling a joke that made Shelley laugh, and Jane stared at his dimple. Would she have been so attracted to him from the first if it weren’t for that dimple? she wondered. Of course she would, but maybe not so quickly or wholeheartedly.
    The greatest surprise in their relationship had been sex. In her marriage with Steve, sex had been a duty. To be fair, it was a pleasant enough duty most of the time, but still a duty. She had always thought the failure to enjoy it thoroughly and every time was a failing of hers. But since her relationship with Mel had taken an intimate turn, she’d discovered how very wrong she’d been. Steve had simply had no imagination, nor any real awareness of her as an equally important participant. Whereas Mel, who was normally a serious, responsible individual, was as playful and silly as an otter in bed.
    Sex with Mel was downright fun. It involved a whole lot of laughter. And he made her completely forget a lot of things she needed to forget: her stretch marks, her own limited experience, and the fact that she was slightly older than he. She might have been locked into domesticity and missed the sexual revolution, but she’d certainly had one of her own in the past few months.
    So why didn’t she want desperately to marry him? She had no idea. It wasn’t that she was opposed to the idea of marrying again someday, just that it didn’t seem important. No, she wasn’t being quite honest with herself. She was opposed. Very slightly. She’d gone from being a daughter to a wife to a mother. She was still a daughter and a mother, but the duties and hazards of those roles were less onerous now than they had once been. But having shed wifeliness, she was becoming quite content.
    She was in love with Mel, but she didn’t look forward to getting intimately involved in doing his laundry. She wasn’t eager to learn what he was like to live with when he had a bad cold. Or was doing his income taxes. Or was trying to fix a lawn mower. She didn’t want to have to explain or defend or even talk about her household budget. And while she often consulted with him, as she did with Shelley, about decisions she had to make—things about the kids, or buying a new car, or whether the roof on her house would last another couple years—she didn’t really want to have to make those decisions jointly. Decision making, which had scared the daylights out of her when Steve had died, had gone to her head now. She liked it. And intended to hang onto the power it gave her.
    “What deep thoughts you must be having,“ Mel said to her, startling her from her reverie. “We’re talking about dessert and you’re not even listening. Is something wrong?“
    “Nothing at all is wrong,“ she said, smiling.
    The dance was held in the conference room where the genealogy debate had taken