Gone Girl

nothing to do with anything—’ Tanner started.
    ‘I was trying to stay calm.’
    ‘You looked very, very calm,’ Boney said. ‘All along, you’ve acted … inappropriately. Unemotional, flippant.’
    ‘That’s just how I am, don’t you see? I’m stoic. To a fault. Amy knows this … She complained about it all the time. That I wasn’t sympathetic enough, that I retreated into myself, that I couldn’t handle difficult emotions – sadness, guilt. She knew I’d look suspicious as hell. Jesus fucking Christ! Talk to Hilary Handy, will you? Talk to Tommy O’Hara. I talked to them! They’ll tell you what she’s like.’
    ‘We have talked to them,’ Gilpin said.
    ‘And?’
    ‘Hilary Handy has made two suicide attempts in the years since high school. Tommy O’Hara has been in rehab twice.’
    ‘Probably because of Amy .’
    ‘Or because they’re deeply unstable, guilt-ridden human beings,’ Boney said. ‘Let’s go back to the treasure hunt.’
    Gilpin read aloud Clue 2 in a deliberate monotone.
    You took me here so I could hear you chat
    About your boyhood adventures: crummy jeans and visor hat
    Screw everyone else, for us they’re all ditched
    And let’s sneak a kiss … pretend we just got hitched .
    ‘You say this was written to force you to go to Hannibal?’ Boney said.
    I nodded.
    ‘It doesn’t say Hannibal anywhere here,’ she said. ‘It doesn’t even imply it.’
    ‘The visor hat, that’s an old inside joke between us about—’
    ‘Oh, an inside joke,’ Gilpin said.
    ‘What about the next clue, the little brown house?’ Boney asked.
    ‘To go to my dad’s,’ I said.
    Boney’s face grew stern again. ‘Nick, your dad’s house is blue.’ She turned to Tanner with rolling eyes: This is what you’re giving me?
    ‘It sounds to me like you’re making up “inside jokes” in these clues,’ Boney said. ‘I mean, you want to talk about convenient: We find out you’ve been to Hannibal, whaddaya know, this clue secretly means go to Hannibal .’
    ‘The final present here,’ Tanner said, pulling the box onto the table, ‘is a not-so-subtle hint. Punch and Judy dolls. As you know,I’m sure, Punch kills Judy and her baby. This was discovered by my client. We wanted to make sure you have it.’
    Boney pulled the box over, put on latex gloves, and lifted the puppets out. ‘Heavy,’ she said, ‘solid.’ She examined the lace of the woman’s dress, the male’s motley. She picked up the male, examined the thick wooden handle with the finger grooves.
    She froze, frowning, the male puppet in her hands. Then she turned the female upside down so the skirt flew up.
    ‘No handle for this one.’ She turned to me. ‘Did there used to be a handle?’
    ‘How should I know?’
    ‘A handle like a two-by-four, very thick and heavy, with built-in grooves to get a really good grip?’ she snapped. ‘A handle like a goddamn club?’
    She stared at me and I could tell what she was thinking: You are a gameplayer. You are a sociopath. You are a killer .

AMY ELLIOTT DUNNE
    ELEVEN DAYS GONE
    T onight is Nick’s much touted interview with Sharon Schieber. I was going to watch with a bottle of good wine after a hot bath, recording at the same time, so I can take notes on his lies. I want to write down every exaggeration, half truth, fib, and bald-facer he utters, so I can gird my fury against him. It slipped after the blog interview – one drunken, random interview! – and I can’t allow that to happen. I’m not going to soften. I’m not a chump. Still, I am eager to hear his thoughts on Andie now that she has broken. His spin.
    I want to watch alone, but Desi hovers around me all day, floating in and out of whatever room I retreat to, like a sudden patch of bad weather, unavoidable. I can’t tell him to leave, because it’s his house. I’ve tried this already, and it doesn’t work. He’ll say he wants to check the basement plumbing or he wants to peer into the fridge to see what food items need purchasing.
    This will go on , I think. This is how my life will be. He will show up when he wants and stay as long as he wants, he’ll shamble around making conversation, and then he’ll sit, and beckon me to sit, and he’ll open a bottle of wine and we’ll suddenly be sharing a meal and there’s no way to stop it .
    ‘I really am exhausted,’ I say.
    ‘Indulge your benefactor a little bit longer,’ he responds, and runs a finger down the crease of his pant legs.
    He knows