Immortals After Dark 12 - Lothaire

wait in agony for twilight.
    At last he broke through the outer layer of ice and ran in search of his mother . . . hoping against hope. Then he spied all that was left of the proud Ivana—black ash against glaringly white snow.
    With a choked yell, he reached for her remains, but a slight breeze soughed, scattering her ashes across the field.
    “No, no, Mother!” Crying, frantic to touch even a fragment of her, he lunged for them—
    And he traced instead, brushing his fingertips over disintegrating ash.
    The first time he’d ever been able to teleport. Shock welled. Hours earlier, that skill would have prevented Ivana’s sacrifice.
    He sank to his knees, filled with a bitter hatred for himself. I failed her. Tears fell—until he perceived a presence.
    The Daci, all around him, cloaked in mist.
    His mother had told him that her family might come for him once the humans were gone. Indeed, they had.
    “Lothaire,” they whispered like the wind.
    He shot to his feet, jerking around in circles. “Show yourselves!” He turned the hatred he’d felt for himself outward. He heard his mother’s voice in his mind: “Rely on cold reason.” But he couldn’t .
    Fury burned inside him just as the sun had burned her.
    “You filthy cowards! Where were you last night? Where is Serghei?” he screamed till spittle sprayed from his lips, freezing there. “Let me see your faces!”
    “Lothaire . . .”
    He traced forward, flying into the mist with his fangs bared. Couldn’t see them. Eyes wide, he realized they were the mist—and within it, so was he. “You let her burn!” he yelled, throat gone raw. “Fight me!”
    From all around, he heard their broken murmurs: “. . . her curse . . .” “. . . he traces within the mist . . .” “. . . Horde blood . . .” “. . . lacking . . .” “. . . rage . . .”
    “Yes, I’ve Horde blood! The better to destroy you with—”
    They merely traced away, dissipating.
    The night was still, utter silence. Utter aloneness. . . .
    Over the centuries, Lothaire had returned here time and again, desperately seeking his mother’s people, seeking Serghei.
    But never had he sleep-traced this kind of distance. The snow bit into his bare feet, a chill breeze leaching the warmth from his uncovered torso.
    Despise this place. Lothaire could still remember the smell of Ivana’s flesh burning on that freezing dawn.
    Because her father, Serghei, the king of the Daci, had forsaken her.
    The grandfather Lothaire had never—in his endless life—been able to find.
    When young, Lothaire hadn’t comprehended the pain his mother had felt. Since then he’d known torture many times, had felt his own skin seared away in the sun.
    Now he understood what Serghei had subjected Ivana to. I can still feel her brittle ashes against my fingertips. . . .
    At the memory, rage seethed inside Lothaire, as fresh as that eve. Shouldn’t it have dimmed?
    He felt crazed, wanting to rip apart an enemy until steaming blood sprayed like rain and painted the snow. “Face me, Serghei!” he bellowed. “You fucking coward!”
    For an instant, he thought he sensed their presence. Or was it only a lingering remnant from his dream? “Face me!” No one met him; no one answered his challenge. “Goddamn you all, fight me!”
    This might be the moment when I topple off the razor’s edge, irretrievably mad.
    Another bellow erupted from his chest. Crave blood, carnage . . . bones shattering . . .
    The rush when flesh gave way to his fangs.
    Atop a razor, staring down at the abyss. And the abyss stares back.
    Just when he realized he was about to lose this battle, he pictured his Bride’s skin yielding, giving up that crimson wine of hers. Sink your fangs into her, plunge them deep. . . .
    His eyes widened. She’s alone. Unguarded.
    In less than an instant, he’d returned to the apartment. Needing to protect her. Needing her . He would bury his face in her hair and inhale her intoxicating scent, could imagine it so clearly.
    He found Elizabeth standing out on her balcony under the cover of sun.
    Not her, not her . Saroya only. He grated, “Let Saroya rise.”
    She turned. “You’re back— Oh, my God, your eyes.”
    “Let her rise!” Abyss.
    “She’s not trying to.”
    He threw back his head and yelled.
    “Lothaire?” He heard the mortal swallow in fear, and yet she eased closer to him, hands out in front of her. “Wh-what’s happened to you? Is that snow on your jeans?”
    He narrowed his gaze on