Love Songs from a Shallow Grave

visit to Neung. It would have been better face to face but I’ve lost my chance. It’s quite simple. If you aren’t having an affair, tell your wife, immediately. If you are, stop it .
    Phosy scratched out the entire postscript with his black biro, slashed at it till the paper tore. Still not satisfied, he took a pair of scissors from his pencil drawer and snipped off the bottom of the page. He scrunched it up and threw it into the wastepaper bin.
    “Interfering little bastard. None of your business,” he thought. “Who are you to tell me what I should or shouldn’t do? You aren’t even a relative, certainly not my father. Too late now, Siri. Where were you forty years ago when I needed you?”
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    There weren’t any orphans in Laos, not government-sponsored or otherwise. And that was due to the fact that folks didn’t give children enough time to think they were unloved. If you lost your parents, a relative would step in and fill their sandals as quickly as blood clotting on a wound, barely a scab. If you had the misfortune of losing your whole family, a neighbour would take you in, or someone in the next village. A local headman, perhaps. But, either way, you’d wake up next day with a new family and nobody would harp on your loss. They’d tell you what happened without drama and, no matter how poor, they wouldn’t complain about what a burden you were. At least, that’s the way it had been in Laos. That’s the way it had been for Phosy.
    He’d been studying at his primary school one day in the little northern village of Ban Maknow, Lemon Town. His mother and father just happened to be working in the wrong field at the wrong time and were mowed down in crossfire between this or that faction. Someone had come by the school and whispered in the teacher’s ear. As Phosy had no uncles or aunts, he went home that evening with his friend, Pow. Pow’s mother and father already had three other children living with them who had lost their parents in a civil war nobody really understood. It was such a clinical transition that it was several days before Phosy fully realised that he’d never see his parents again. He’d cried, of course. He missed them. But he was already safe and happy before loneliness had a chance to take hold.
    His new father was a carpenter. He carved temple doors and fine furniture and all seven of the children, five boys and two girls, learned to use woodworking tools at an early age. There was no secondary schooling in those parts so Phosy had hoped his new father would take him on as an apprentice as he had done with his eldest son. But when Phosy was ten, a young man had come to the village. He was educated and well-spoken. In the open-sided village meeting hut, he explained to all the parents how he had been plucked from a place very much like this when he was a boy. How he’d been given the opportunity to study in the liberated zones in the north-east. He’d graduated from high school there and gone on to further education in Vietnam. He told them that they’d recently opened a new school and that they could take eight hundred new students. All food and board would be taken care of.
    A week later, Phosy, Pow, and their sister, Beybey, were in a covered truck heading across the country. Phosy felt something in his stomach that he would later come to recognise as betrayal. They’d given him away. The family he’d loved had handed him over to a stranger. He couldn’t understand it but life was travelling too quickly to analyse. They taught him things in the liberated zones. He learned how the French colonists had stolen their land. He learned how the rich landowners had taken advantage of the common people. He learned how to be angry and to punch his fist into the air and shout, “Liberation!” He learned how to shoot guns and kill. And, by the time he reached seventeen, he and his false siblings were junior officers in the new Lao People’s Liberation Army. All three of them were so entangled in the revolution they hadn’t found time to go back to visit the family that had raised and cared for them…and given them away.
    Phosy rose fastest through the ranks. He had an inquisitive mind and, once he reached the position of colonel, he was transferred to military intelligence and trained in the art of espionage just outside Hanoi. With a new identity, he arrived in Vientiane in 1965 and began work as a carpenter. Other LPLA men and women had been trickled into the