Never Forget (Memories)

The moment I broke her heart.
    I rub the back of my head and I hear a cough from the corner of the room.
    ''You look like shit, boy.'' Gran says, glancing up from the clicking of her knitting needles.
    ''Gee, thanks, Gran,'' I snap. ''You really know how to make a guy feel good. What are you doing here?''
    ''Just callin' it as I see it, Alec. Waiting for your Mum to take me shopping, same as I do every week, lad.'' Click click. ''What did you do?''
    ''Why do you assume I've done something?''
    ''Because you usually have. Got drunk, annoyed someone's daughter because you slept with them and threw them into the trash pile. There's always something, and it's always your fault.'' Click click. ''It's different this time, though, isn't it? But it's still your fault.''
    Grey eyes meet mine. Dad's eyes. On Gran.
    ''Yeah, it's my damn fault.'' I flop back onto the sofa. ''I fucked up, Gran.''
    ''Language, Timothy,'' she scolds.
    ''I messed up,'' I correct myself. ''Every time. I can't.. Since he died I can't seem to keep anything together. I finally find the person I want and I can't even hold onto her.''
    ''Vi's awake,'' Gran says suddenly. ''I spoke with Emily not too long ago. They're heading up there today.''
    ''Good,'' I say, looking out at the back garden. ''I'm glad she's getting better.''
    ''Said she was awake, boy, not that she's getting better. Two different things.''
    ''You think she won't make it?''
    ''She'll make it what she wants to make it. That's the beauty of Karma.'' Click click. ''You can piss it off so it throws a truckload of crap back at you, but you can fight it. You can tell it to piss off back to wherever it came from and take matters into your own hands, 'cause what's the use in your life if you ain't got a say in it?''
    Grey eyes sparkle with a wisdom beyond anything I could ever hope to achieve.
    ''You're telling me in your own crazy way that I have to fight karma, aren't you?'' I ask, narrowing my eyes.
    ''Karma hit you with a bucket load of silage because you pissed it off one time too many. It ain't gonna give her back to you, boy.'' She sniffs. Click. ''The only person that can get that girl back is you.''
    ''Fight for what you believe in, never give up and never forget why you believe in the first place,'' I echo the words Dad said to me so many times before he died. Never forget.
    Never forget.
    ''Gran you're a fucking genius.'' I kiss her forehead and run up the stairs, changing quickly.
    ''Language!'' Gran yells as I fly out of the front door and into my car.
    She just has to remember. She just has to remember about us. I can't let her forget about us.

    ALEXIS

    An engine rumbles outside and I pull the corner of the curtain to one side. A black 4x4. Hell no. Hell. Fucking. No.
    I drop the curtain and run into the kitchen. A door slams. One, two, three. Knock knock. My heart beats wildly in my chest as I push against the wall to stop from running out there. If I do, I'll either kiss him or kick him.
    Actually... Kicking him sounds pretty appealing right now.
    ''I get it, Princess.'' His voice drifts through the crack in the door. ''I'm sorry, so sorry. I can't even.. find the words. Shit.'' I can imagine him running his hands through his hair, shutting his eyes and kicking the floor the way he does when he's frustrated.
    ''I know you're in there, but whether or not you're listening is another story,'' he carries on. ''But I.. Fuck it. I have to say it before I go mad, okay? I wish with every part of me I was in there with you, holding you and taking your pain away. In fact, I'm certain I'd do pretty much anything to be in there with you right now..'' Tears start to slide down my cheeks and I grip the counter. ''I just.. I love you, okay? I didn't plan to fall in love with you, not for a second, but I did and I can't take that back. I wouldn't even if I could. It's killing me that I'm hurting you. I know I don't deserve anything but, Princess, if you only ever do one thing for me, then never forget, okay?
    ''Never forget how I held you under the stars, how I showed you there's more to life than just shopping and weekend partying. Never forget everything we've shared in the last six weeks, all the smiles, laughter and everything else that made us as close as two people can ever be. I know I won't. I won't forget it, okay? So you don't either. Never forget that somewhere along the way you became the only thing worth waking up for. But most importantly, never forget how much I love you. Never