Seasons of War

making me an outcast living in gutters for something you were just as guilty of. You are a hypocrite and a liar in everything you’ve done. I owe you nothing, Otah-kvo. Nothing! ’
    Otah was shouting something, but Maati’s ears were rushing with blood and raw anger. He saw the armsmen shift forward, blades at the ready, but Maati was far past caring. Every injustice, every slight, every cupful of pent-up outrage spilled out, all made worse by the fact that Otah - self-righteous, entitled, and arrogant - was so busy shouting back that he wasn’t hearing a word of what Maati was saying.
    When he noticed through his rage that a third voice had entered the fray, he couldn’t say how long it had been going.
    ‘I said stop !’ the Galt shouted again. ‘Stop it! Both of you!’
    Maati turned to the girl, a sneer on his lip, but he was having a hard time catching his breath. Otah also was now silent, his imperial face flushed bright red. Maati felt the urge to offer up an obscene gesture, but he restrained himself. The girl stood in the space between the two, her hands outstretched. Danat stepped to her side. If anything, her anger appeared as high as either of her elders’, but she was able to speak coherently.
    ‘Gods,’ she said. ‘Is this really what we’ve been doing? Someone please tell me that the world is on its knees over something more than two old men chewing over quarrels from their boyhood.’
    ‘This is much, much more than that,’ Otah said. His voice, though severe, had lost some of its certainty.
    ‘I wouldn’t know from listening to that display,’ Idaan said. ‘Anacha has more sense than you on this, brother. Listen to her.’
    Otah had calmed down enough to look merely peeved. Maati held his fist to his chest, but his heart was slowing to its usual pace. Nothing had happened. He was fine. Otah, across from him, took a pose appropriate to the beginning of a short break in a negotiation. His jaw was tight and his stance only civil. Maati replied with one that accepted the proposal. He wanted to sit at Eiah’s side, to talk with her about what to do next and how to go about it. It would have been a provocation, though, so instead, Maati retreated to the door leading out into the cold, black courtyard and the clean night air.
    It had been a mistake. Otah was too proud and self-centered to help them. He was too wrapped up in anger that the world hadn’t followed his one and only holy and anointed plan. They should have gone on to Utani, found someone in the utkhaiem who would support them. Or they should have gone after Vanjit themselves.
    They should have done anything but this.
    Voices came from behind him. Danat’s, Otah’s, Eiah’s. They sounded tense, but they weren’t shouting. Maati pressed his hands into their opposite sleeves and watched his breath steam like a soup kettle. He wondered where Vanjit was and how she was keeping warm. It seemed the woman had become two different people in his mind - one, the girl who had come to him in despair and been given hope again, the other a half-mad poet he’d loosed on the world. The impulses to kill her and to see to her care shouldn’t have been able to exist in him at the same time, and yet there they were. He prayed she was dead, and he hoped she was well.
    Between that and seeing Otah again, his head was buzzing like a hive.
    ‘We’ve reached a conclusion,’ Idaan said from behind him. He turned. She was standing in the doorway, blocking the light. His belly itched where her assassin had stabbed him all those years before.
    ‘Should I be grateful?’ Maati asked. Idaan ignored the jab.
    ‘If you and Otah can’t play gently, and it’s clear as the moon that you can’t, we’re going to go through channels. Eiah’s talking with Danat. They sent me to speak with you.’
    ‘Ah, because we’re such excellent friends?’
    ‘Say it’s because our relationship is simpler,’ Idaan said. Her voice took on the texture of cast iron. ‘Tell me what happened.’
    Maati leaned against the rough wall and shook his head. He’d become too excited, and now that he was calming, it was coming out in an urge to weep. He would not under any circumstances allow that in front of Idaan. Idaan, who’d tried to have Otah killed and had now become his traveling companion. What more did anyone need to know to understand how far Otah had fallen?
    ‘Maati,’ Idaan said, her voice still hard. ‘Now.’
    He began with leaving the school,