Shadow and Betrayal

clothed woman in the bathhouse. Amat restrained herself from making an obscene gesture at him.
    ‘Tsani-cha,’ Wilsin said, addressing the young man though his gaze was locked on Amat. ‘Forgive me. My overseer and I have pressing business. I will send a runner with the full proposal.’
    ‘But Wilsin-cha,’ the young man began, his voice trailing off when the old Galt turned to him. Amat saw something in Wilsin’s face that would have made her blanch too, had she been less fueled by her rage. The young man took a pose of thanks appropriate to closing an audience, hopped noisily out of the bath and strode out.
    ‘Have you seen her?’ Amat demanded, leaning on her cane. ‘Have you spoken with her?’
    ‘No, I haven’t. Close the door, Amat.’
    ‘She thinks—’
    ‘I said close the door; I meant close the door. ’
    Amat paused, then limped over and slammed the wooden door shut. The sounds of the bathhouse faded. When she turned back, Wilsin was sitting on the edge of the recessed bath, his head in his hands. The bald spot at the top of his head was flushed pink. Amat moved forward.
    ‘What were you thinking, Amat?’
    ‘That this can’t be right,’ she said. ‘I met with the girl. She doesn’t know about the sad trade. She’s an innocent.’
    ‘She’s the only one in this whole damned city, then. Did you tell her? Did you warn her?’
    ‘Without knowing what this is? Of course not. When was the last time you knew me to act without understanding the situation?’
    ‘This morning,’ he snapped. ‘Now. Just now. Gods. And where did you learn to speak Nippu anyway?’
    Amat stood beside him and then slowly lowered herself to the blue-green tiles. Her hip flared painfully, but she pushed it out of her mind.
    ‘What is this?’ she asked. ‘You’re hiring the Khai to end a pregnancy, and the mother doesn’t know that’s what you’re doing? You’re killing a wanted child? It doesn’t make sense.’
    ‘I can’t tell you. I can’t explain. I’m . . . I’m not allowed.’
    ‘At least promise me that the child is going to live. Can you promise me that?’
    He looked over at her, his pale eyes empty as a corpse.
    ‘Gods,’ Amat breathed.
    ‘I never wanted to come here,’ he said. ‘This city. That was my uncle’s idea. I wanted to run the tripled trade. Silver and iron from Eddensea south to Bakta for sugar and rum, then to Far Galt for cedar and spicewood and back to Eddensea. I wanted to fight pirates. Isn’t that ridiculous? Me. Fighting pirates.’
    ‘You will not make me feel sorry for you. Not now. You are Marchat Wilsin, and the voice of your house in Saraykeht. I have seen you stand strong before a mob of Westermen screaming for blood. You faced down a high judge when you thought he was wrong and called him fool to his face. Stop acting like a sick girl. We don’t have to do this. Refuse the contract.’
    Wilsin looked up, his chin raised, his shoulders squared. For a moment, she thought he might do as she asked. But when he spoke, his voice was defeated.
    ‘I can’t. The stakes are too high. I’ve already petitioned the Khai for an audience. It’s in motion, and I can’t stop it any more than I can make the tide come early.’
    Amat kicked off her sandals, raised the hem of her robes, and let her aching feet sink into the cool water. Light played on the surface, patterns of brightness and shadow flickering across Marchat’s chest and face. He was weeping. That more than anything else turned her rage to fear.
    ‘Then help me make sense of it. What is this child?’ Amat said. ‘Who is the father?’
    ‘No one. The child is no one. The father is no one. The girl is no one.’
    ‘Then why, Marchat? Why . . .’
    ‘I can’t tell you! Why won’t you hear me when I say that? Ah? I don’t get to tell you. Gods. Amat. Amat, why did you have to go out there?’
    ‘You wanted me to. Why else ask me to arrange a bodyguard? You told me of a meeting I wasn’t welcome to. You said there was house business, and then you said that you trusted me. How could you think I wouldn’t look?’
    He laughed with a sound like choking - mirthless and painful. His thick fingers grasped his knees, fingertips digging into pink flesh. Amat laid her cane aside and pressed her palm to his bent shoulder. Through the carved cedar blinds she heard someone on the street shriek and go silent.
    ‘The round-faced one - Oshai. He came, didn’t he? He told you I went there.’
    ‘Of course he