Single Lady Spy 01 - The End of Me

was sacrificing another person for my family.
    Coop was staring at me when I looked up. He mouthed, “You okay?”
    I twitched a no.
    I wasn’t as good at mouthing things as he and Servario were. I could still read lips as fast as ever.
    Coop mouthed again, “You want me to make you feel better?”
    I laughed and nodded.
    He came over and sat in the pod next to me, Servario’s usual spot. I wondered if Servario would care if Coop was sitting there?
    Coop leaned in, “You have to let it slide. Just think, she made her bed.”
    I pressed my lips together and then whispered, “I can’t. I have a terrible feeling.”
    He got up and went to the front of the plane. He came back a minute later with a tray.
    I laughed when Coop put it down.
    I licked my wrist and held it out. He shook the salt on mine and then his and poured the shots. He poured four instead of two.
    He nodded at Jack and Luce. They were sitting beside each other up front, but both got up and made their way to us.
    “Oh yeah.” Luce laughed and licked her wrist. Jack shook his head, “I’m not good at this one. Tequila makes me throw up.”
    Luce shook her head, “What is your deal?”
    Jack hesitated and licked his wrist. Coop salted and passed out the shots.
    He held his up, “To our families, wherever they are. May they be safe, wherever they are.”
    Jack added, “And may they never know about how close the world comes to ending or what we really do for a living.”
    I snorted, “Cheers to that.”
    We clanked, licked, drank and sucked.
    Jack walked away, with his glass and a sour face. Luce laughed, “I’ll go make sure he’s okay.”
    I looked at them walking back to their seats and gave Coop a look.
    He looked at me like I was insane, “Duh.”
    “What? I didn’t know.”
    Coop shook his head, whispering, “That dress made everyone see her differently. Jack may never be the same.”
    I laughed and whispered, “I seriously thought she was gay.”
    He gave me a look, “Why?”
    I shook my head, “She seems like one of the boys….”
    Servario interrupted my sentence, “You used to be like that.” I glanced up at Servario standing next to me. I hadn’t even noticed him coming back.
    I squinted, “I was not.”
    Servario folded his arms across his chest, “You were. You were the sharpest shooter, and had to be the fastest runner, and could drink everyone under the table. You were.”
    Coop laughed, “I heard the same reports.”
    I looked at him, blushing, “I must have forgotten.”
    Coop smirked, “The best agents are ‘one of the boys’. They fit in; first rule of being an agent, F.I.F.O. It means Fit In or Fuck Off.”
    I put my hand out for another shot. I looked up at Servario, “What if it isn’t her?”
    He gave me a look and walked to the back of the plane.
    We took off but Roxy never came back, neither did Servario.
    Coop poured me a third shot. I couldn’t stop my eyes from darting to the back.
    I drank the shot smoothly, fighting the shudder I wanted to do.
    My belly rumbled.
    Coop laughed, “I’m starving too.”
    I looked over at him, “How are we going to clean this all up?”
    He shook his head, “This mess is huge. I don’t even know. Right now we’re riding with enemy number one. Me, Luce and Jack all went off the reservation, so we’re as guilty as you now. They’ll find a way to pin this on us too. Being with Servario is only making it easier for them to do it.”
    I closed my eyes and sighed, “I know, and yet, I have the feeling that he is the only person we can actually trust.”
    I opened one eye when he didn’t say anything. He looked stricken, “I agree,” he whispered.
    For the strangest of reasons, Coop’s words didn’t make me feel better.
    I closed my eye again and let the comfy pod take me away.
    I woke up with a start. I looked around the plane, Luce and Jack were leaned up against each other. Coop was sound asleep next to me.
    I heard a noise.
    It must have been the thing that woke me up.
    I unbuckled and walked to the back of the plane.
    “Stop, we shouldn’t be doing this here,” Roxy said, in between ragged breaths.
    My stomach clenched, “Oh God,” I whispered to myself.
    He was fucking Roxy.
    He was betraying me.
    I froze and prepared myself for what I was about to see.
    Did I want to see it?
    I didn’t, it didn’t feel the same as before. The conversations we’d had since then, changed everything.
    But had they? Had I fallen for his smooth lines and sexy