The Crippled God

now, the thirst that gripped their faces like taloned, skeletal hands. Claws will make you suffer .
    Yet the father, now standing before Rutt, reached down to the waterskin strapped to his sword belt. There was little water in it – that was obvious by its thinness, the ease with which he lifted it. Tugging the stopper free, he held it out to Rutt.
    Who in turn thrust out Held. ‘Her first,’ he said. ‘Please, the little one first.’
    The gesture was unambiguous and without hesitation the father stepped up, and as Rutt pulled the cloth from in front of Held’s small, wizened face the bearded man leaned close.
    She saw him recoil, saw him look up and stare hard into Rutt’s slitted eyes.
    Badalle held her breath. Waited.
    Then he shifted the waterskin, dipped the mouthpiece over Held’s mouth, and the water trickled down.
    She sighed. ‘This father, Rutt, is a good father.’
    One of the clawed children, a year or two older than Rutt, came up then and gently took Held from Rutt’s arms – he might have resisted, but did not have the strength, and when the babe was in the cradle of the strange boy’s arms Rutt’s own arms remained crooked, as if he still held her, and Badalle saw how the tendons at his elbows had shrunk, drawn tight. And she thought back, trying to recall when she had last seen Rutt not holding Held, and she couldn’t.
    The baby was a ghost in his arms now.
    The father was weeping – she could see the tracks down his darkened, pitted cheeks – and he guided the mouthpiece into Rutt’s mouth, forced it past the boy’s lips. A few drops, and then out again.
    Rutt swallowed.
    The other children with claws slipped past them, into the coiled Snake, each pulling out their own waterskins. But there were not enough of them. Still they went.
    And now Badalle saw a new Snake, coming out of the sunset, and thisone was of iron and chains, and she knew that she had seen it before, in her dreams. She had looked down upon this glittering serpent. Fathers and mothers, but children all. And there – I see her – that is their one mother – I see her. She comes .
    People spilled out around the woman, with more waterskins.
    She halted close to the bearded father, her eyes on Badalle, and when she spoke it was in the language of Badalle’s dreams. ‘Fiddler, they are walking the wrong way.’
    ‘Aye, Adjunct.’
    ‘I see only children.’
    ‘Aye.’
    Standing behind this woman was another soldier. ‘But … Adjunct, who do they belong to?’
    She turned. ‘It doesn’t matter, Fist, because they now belong to us.’
    Rutt turned to Badalle. ‘What are they saying?’
    ‘They’re saying we have to go back.’
    The boy mouthed the last word. Back?
    Badalle said, ‘Rutt, you did not fail. You guided the Snake, and your blind tongue flicked out and found these strangers who are strangers no longer. Rutt, you led us from death and into life. Rutt,’ she stepped close, ‘you can rest now.’
    The bearded man – whose name was Fiddler – managed to break Rutt’s fall, but both went down to their knees.
    The Adjunct took a half-step. ‘Captain? Does he live?’
    He looked up after a moment. ‘If his heart still beats, Adjunct, I can neither feel nor hear it.’
    Badalle spoke in their language. ‘He lives, Father. He has just gone away. For a time.’
    The man Mother had called Fist, who had been standing back, now edged forward and said, ‘Child, how is it you speak Malazan? Who are you?’
    Who am I? I don’t know. I’ve never known . She met Mother’s eyes. ‘Rutt led us to you. Because you are the only ones left.’
    ‘Only ones?’
    ‘The only ones who will not turn away from us. You are our mother.’
    At that the Adjunct seemed to step back, her eyes flaring as if struck to pain. And then she looked away from Badalle, who then pointed at Fiddler. ‘And he is our father, and soon he will go away and we will never see him again. It is the way of fathers.’ That thought made her sad, but she shook her head against the feeling. ‘It is just the way.’
    The Adjunct seemed to be trembling and unable to look upon Badalle. Instead, she turned to the man beside her. ‘Fist, broach the reserve casks.’
    ‘Adjunct! Look at them! Half will die before dawn!’
    ‘Fist Blistig, I have given you an order.’
    ‘We cannot spare any water! Not for these – these …’
    ‘Obey my command,’ said the Adjunct in a weary tone, ‘or I will have you executed. Here.