The Lesson of Her Death

Visa and Amex in the names of Gilchrist comma L. and Sayles comma R. R.”
    “It’s the same person using both cards?”
    “That’s what we’re reading, sir,” Neale said.
    Corde punched the air with a fist. He winked at Kresge.
    “You have a hidey-hole for him?” Kresge asked.
    “Holiday Inn Eastwood near the river. Checked in as Sayles.”
    “He hasn’t checked out?”
    “No, sir. But we don’t know whether he’s in or not at the moment.”
    “Okay,” Corde said, “We’ve got a warrant. Deputy Kresge and I’ll be up there in about two hours. You’ll keep surveillance on him? I’ll fax you the warrant. If he heads out before we get there pick him up, will you?”
    “Yessir, it’ll be our pleasure. What’d his risk status be?”
    “How’s that?” Corde asked.
    “He armed, dangerous?”
    Corde looked at Kresge and said, “Extremely dangerous.”

T he hardest part was lying to him.
    It wasn’t so difficult to tell him that his father couldn’t be at the wrestling match after all. And it wasn’t so hard to see Jamie take the news with heroic disappointment, just a nod, not even a burst of temper (which she would have preferred, because that’s what
she
felt). But making up her husband’s words just stabbed her through. Your father said to tell you, Diane embellished, that this killer’s on the loose and they’ve got a real solid chance to catch him. He tried to arrange it different but he’s the one’s got to go. He’s sending all his thoughts with you.
    “And,” Diane said, unable to look into her son’s eyes, “he promised he’ll make it up to you.”
    What in truth happened was that Corde had simply left for Fitzberg and hadn’t even bothered to call home or tell Emma to do it for him.
    What a long long wait it had been! The time had crept past the hour when Corde was due home. Cars passed but no New Lebanon Sheriff’s Department We Serve and Protect cruisers hurried up to the house. The minutes dropping away as Jamie and his teammate Davey sat on the couch fidgeting, joking at first as they talked about whupping Higgins High School’s butt then looking out the window anxiously then falling silent. As six-thirty came and went Diane had decided she was going to insist that Corde break procedures and take the boys in the cruiser itself, siren blazing and red light going like a beating heart.
    At six-fifty Diane had made the call. It was much shorter than she let on. Emma the dispatcher told her Bill and Deputy Kresge had hurried out the door and would be spending the night in Fitzberg.
    Diane thanked her then listened to the dial tone as she continued her fake conversation at a higher volume. “Oh, Bill, what happened? … No, really? You’ve almost got him.… Oh be careful, honey.… Well, Jamie’s going to be good and disappointed and here you were already a half hour late.… Okay.… Okay.… I’ll tell him.…”
    Then she delivered her improvised monologue and asked the deputy to step inside to baby-sit Sarah.
    “Let me get another deputy to go with you, Mrs. Corde. Your husband said there’s—”
    “My husband caused this mess,” she growled. “And we don’t have time to wait.”
    Diane and the two boys piled into the station wagon for a frantic ride to the Higgins High School gym. She ran every red light en route and was spoiling for a fight with any uniformed trooper foolish enough to pull her over.
    Bill, you and me’ve gotta talk
.

    Diane Corde sat on hard bleachers, sipping a watery Coke. She watched the crowds and thought of the smell, the peculiar aroma of school gyms, which a girlfriend had told her years ago came from boys’ jockstraps. She wanted to tell this story to someone. She wished Ben Breck were here, sitting next to her.
    After ten matches there was a staticky announcement, the only words of which she discerned were “Jamie Corde.” She set the Coke beside her and finger-whistled at a hundred decibels. The visiting spectators cheered New Lebanon.
    Diane watched her son striding out onto the mat, brooding and engrossed and fluid in his step. She whistled again, bringing fingers to the ears of nearby fans. She wailed for New Lebanon and pummeled the bleachers with her feet—the current fad to show support. Jamie was so focused, so single-minded in his efforts. He ran five miles every day, pumped weights every other. He trained and trained. And he had recovered so well from the tragedy of Philip. He was even taking his father’s