The Long Hard Road Out of Hell
never going anywhere.â I think he was under the impression that we worshipped the devil and advocated rapeâprobably from those phony fucking affidavitsâand he ended up chewing us out and ordering room service all night. A total schizo, and another idol forever shattered.
     FEBRUARY 4, 1997, LUBBOCK, TEXAS
God has somehow managed to find his way into the Hippocratic oath because the paramedics here refused to treat me with oxygen for exhaustion after our performance, explaining that they didnât agree with my morality, therefore I didnât deserve their emergency life-preserving skills. Apparently Jesus saves, but the paramedics here donât.
     FEBRUARY 7, 1997, KANSAS
Iâm not sure what I hate more: the bomb threats or the bomb dogs that are trying to save us. Because those happen to be the same dogs that sniff out drugs, and I donât know whether Iâm more paranoid of getting blown up or arrested.
     FEBRUARY 14, 1997
I lost the last connection with my past today, Missi. The fact that I wasnât with her today must have symbolized my priorities to her, and she doesnât want to speak to me. Weâll always be close, because she has a part of me inside her. But itâs a part of me I no longer haveâand it was the darkest part of me, too. I hope it doesnât cripple her the rest of her life.
     FEBRUARY 19, 1997, MASSACHUSETTS
I canât decide if I hate America more than it hates me.
     FEBRUARY 21, 1997, MASSACHUSETTS
Another shitty show. Now I canât decide if America hates me more than I hate myself.
     UNDATED
The ironic part about all this Christian outrage is that on certain levels this tour pales compared to some of the things that weâve done in the past. The Christians are complaining about the way I compare them to Nazis. Theyâre not complaining about me tearing up the bible; theyâre not complaining about me wiping my ass with the American flag. I donât know whatâs more ridiculous: the stories theyâve created or the fact that people believe them. If I didnât commit those acts, then where did they come from? Nowhere other than the imagination of my accusers. So whoâs the sinner now?
     MARCH, 1997, NEW YORK
I met Fiona Apple at the Grammy Awards after-party the other night. Sheâs this little singer who no oneâs heard of. Iâm a huge fan of her music. And sheâs so sexy and fragile, definitely too fragile for me. If I was ever to be put in a circumstance where I could have sex with her, I would decline because her vagina is probably too precious to be dirtied by my filthy cock. When she walked in the room they were blasting the song we did for Lost Highway , âApple of Sodom,â and the lyric playing was âI got something you can never eat.â Total delusional self, because that songâs about obsession and things you can never have and, in a distant way, is kind of inspired by her.
She was slouched over and looked very timid, almost like a wounded deer, as if she was about to cry. I asked her whatâs wrong, and she said she was overwhelmed and show business was too much stress for a girl of her age with her constitution. I asked her to sit down and said Iâd bring her some food or a drink, but she was a vegan andâunlike meâwas really picky about what sheâd put into her body, which definitely means weâll never get along even though Iâm attracted to her on many different levels. When I was speaking with her, I was distracted for two seconds by some celebrityâs drunk teenage daughter who was bouncing around singing songs and talking about the various rock stars who had made her pregnant. Another starfucker and sycophant sucking the life out of me and distracting me from the conversation that I want to have. When I turned back around, this weird fellow had kind of slithered his way up to Fiona and was performing card tricks for her. Really lame. In the book of shitty ways to pick up women this was chapter one. But I think it worked.
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