The Rock Star Trilogy 01 - Jaded

off without you.”
    Her words hurt me, because maybe she's right. If she would have been with her parent's they would have known the signs to look for. Maybe they could have prevented this from happening.
    “ You know it's true,” she continues. I think she knows she is getting to me. “Just leave, and give Bridgett a shot at a normal life. The normal life that you will never have. You chose the path for your life, let her chose hers.”
    I shake my head. “You can't chose for her. It's her choice. And if she wants to be with her twin sister , then you should let her. Me and her are related by blood .”
    “ I've been there for her for 19 years . I am her mother , even if it's not by blood. You haven't even known her a month . Do you really think she will chose you over me ?”
    I literally can't stop the words from coming out of my mouth. “She already chose me. She came here with me . And it doesn't matter that we haven't known each other that long. We are sisters , and I love her.”
    Mary has tears in her eyes. “If you love her, then you need to do what is best for her. You need to leave.”
    She turns and walks away, and I stare after her.
    Even though I know what she said is crazy , I can't help but wonder if she is right . Bridgett will be better off without me in her life. I will always be followed by paparazzi. The spotlight would always follow me around. And the truth is, I am not completely ready to give up my old life. My dream is still to make music.
    Bridgett doesn't belong in LA. She is so smart, and has her whole future ahead of her. She needs to finish college, and have a shot at normal. As long as she stays around me, she can't have that.
    So, right then, I decide leaving would be for the best. Not just for Bridgett, but for everybody.
    I pick up my phone, call my pilot, and pack a small bag.
    I have to leave before I change my mind.

    7:36 am
    I'm saying goodbye

    I'm on the plane, and we are about to take off. My phone rings, and I see Stephan's name pop up on the screen.
    “ Hey,” I answer. My voice is shaky. I am not sure how I am going to say goodbye, but I know I have to. I not only screwed up Bridgett's life, but Stephan's too. I made things worse for him at school. The rest of his senior year is going to be hell because of me.
    “ Where are you? I thought we could go eat breakfast before you went to the hospital.”
    I feel a tear fall down my cheek. I take a deep breath, and try to sound strong. I'm not strong. I know if he begs me to stay, I will. “I'm leaving, Stephan. Mary is right. Bridgett is better off without me. So are you.”
    “ Scarlett, what are you saying?”
    “ I'm saying goodbye.”
    The pilot comes back to where I'm sitting. “We are ready for take off when you are, Miss Ryan.”
    “ I have to go. Goodbye, Stephan.”
    I hear Stephan something something, but I click the “END” button on my phone. I can't hear what he has to say.
    “ I'm ready.”
    As soon as the pilot walks back to the front, I let the tears flow, and I don't let them stop until I am back in LA.

Thursday, October 8
    6:51 pm
    Selfish bitch.

    I have been in LA for four days now. My phone stopped ringing after the second day, and since then it has been quiet. I haven't had any updates on Bridgett, or worried/ furious calls from Stephan... Nothing. It's almost as if I never existed to them. Maybe I would feel better if they still called me. I would rather them be mad at me, then have them forget me.
    But this is exactly what I wanted , or at least, that's what I keep telling myself.
    My time in Florida was short... I wasn't even there a whole month, though it felt like much longer.
    I wonder if it has been easy for them to go back to how their life was before I came. I wonder if they miss me. Because I miss them like crazy .
    Since coming back to LA, the only person I have talked to is Alec. He is the only person who knows that I am here. Not even my dad knows. I know that I am going to confront him at some point, but not right now. I need time to heal.
    So, for now, I wallow in my loneliness. I brought this on myself, and I deserve it.

    Later that night, my doorbell rings. I wonder if it is Alec, but he's in New York visiting some family there. He won't be back until later next week.
    When I get to the door, I'm surprised to see Stephan is standing on the other side. At first, I'm worried that something happened to Bridgett, but then I really look at Stephan, and he looks PISSED . He