The Thanatos Syndrome
seems she has enrolled at the University of Mississippi as a freshman. She loves it. Her heart is set on being pledged by the Gammas, a sorority. All her friends are Gammas. If she does not make Gamma, her life will be ruined. There would be little doubt she would make it, but it seems there is a little hitch, says Enrique, and it is because her complexion is quite brunette like mine, and you know how it is in Mississippi, even though she is pure Castilian-German. Now here it is, the end of rush week, and she has not been pledged.
Enrique in fact looks like an Indian.
âThatâs too bad, Enrique,â I say, still wondering why heâs here.
âHereâs the thing, Doc. I understand that the Gamma rush captain is a young kinswoman of yours, the granddaughter in fact of the distinguished lady from the Mississippi Delta who was the foundress of this very chapter of Gammas. Now here it is at the end of rush weekââ He looks down at his diamond-studded Rolex watch as if minutes counted.
I look at him in astonishment. How does he know such things? I had forgotten myself, if I ever knew, that Jo Ann had gone to Ole Miss, let alone that she was rush captain of Gamma.
âCome inside, Enrique.â I remember all too well what it is to have an unhappy daughter.
It takes ten minutes. I call Aunt Birdie in Vicksburg and Jo Ann at Oxford. Two or three words about Carmela being a darling girl, member of an ancient aristocratic Castilian and Prussian family, indeed one of the first fourteen families of El Salvador, a prime prospect whom they canât afford to lose to the Chi Oâs, and so on.
I hang up. âSheâll get her invitation this afternoon,â I tell Enrique.
âOh, my dear friend! Jesus!â cries Enrique, leaping to his feet. There are actually tears in his eyes. Iâm afraid heâs going to embrace me, so I shake hands quickly. He shakes with both of his. âYou name it, Doctor! Anything!â
âMy pleasure, Enrique.â It is. Such matters can be serious. I canât stand to see a child, any child who sets her heart on it, get blackballed by the sisters, who can in fact be as mean to one another as yard dogs.
But my interest in Enrique lies elsewhere. It is the change in him. Imagine a Central American whoâs lost interest in politics! Who knows all about Ole Miss sororities!
On the way out I ask him casually where San Cristóbal isâSan Cristóbal, the town in Chiapas, Mexico, where his family first settled. If Iâd asked him two years ago, asked him anything about Mexico, heâd have got going on the Mexicans, whom he dislikes, but now he merely closes his eyes.
âOh, Iâd say itâs about three hundred miles northwest of Santa Anna.â Santa Anna is the place where he lived on his finca in El Salvador. He doesnât even ask me why I wanted to know. Heâll tell me anything, give me anything.
I ask him if he will come in next week for a couple of testsâI tell him I want to see if heâs as healthy as he looks. What I really want is a CORTscan.
âMy pleasure, Doc,â says Enrique, trying out his interlocking grip on an imaginary club, swinging as easily as Sam Snead.
C ASE H ISTORY #2
Here is Ella Murdoch Smith.
Her problem used to be failure and fright. âI canât cope,â she once told me quietly. âItâs too much. What happens when people canât cope? Is there a place to go, some government program for people who just canât cope any longer?â she asked ironically but seriously. I told her I didnât know of any such program. âBut this is ridiculous,â she said. âHave you ever heard of a card game where youâre dealt a hand, a losing hand, and youâre stuck with it, canât turn it in, canât fold and draw a new card, and youâre stuck with it the rest of your life?â I admitted I had never heard of such a game. âYouâre right,â she said. âThere is no such game. I want to fold this hand.â I took her threat of suicide, of folding her hand for good, seriously.
Her husband had left her with two small children. She had to go to work. An educated woman, she had no particular skills and had a hard time holding down a job, taking care of the children, running the house. She became frightened.
I looked at her. That was three years ago. What was remarkable about her was that here she was, a
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