Villette

heart; affection and deep esteem and dawning trust had each fastened its bond.
    What quiet lessons I had about this time! No more taunts on my ›intellect,‹ no more menaces of grating public shows! How sweetly, for the jealous gibe, and the more jealous, half-passionate eulogy, were substituted a mute, indulgent help, a fond guidance, and a tender forbearance which forgave but never praised. There were times when he would sit for many minutes and not speak at all; and when dusk or duty brought separation, he would leave with words like these: »Il est doux, le repos! Il est précieux, le calme bonheur!«
    One evening, not ten short days since, he joined me whilst walking in my alley. He took my hand. I looked up in his face; I thought he meant to arrest my attention.
    »Bonne petite amie!« said he, softly; »douce consolatrice!« But through his touch, and with his words, a new feeling and a strange thought found a course. Could it be that he was becoming more than friend or brother? Did his look speak a kindness beyond fraternity or amity?
    His eloquent look had more to say, his hand drew me forward, his interpreting lips stirred. No. Not now. Here into the twilight alley broke an interruption: it came dual and ominous: we faced two bodeful forms – a woman's and a priest's – Madame Beck and Père Silas.
    The aspect of the latter I shall never forget. On the first impulse, it expressed a Jean-Jacques sensibility, stirred by the signs of affection just surprised; then, immediately, darkened over it the jaundice of ecclesiastical jealousy. He spoke to
me
with unction. He looked on his pupil with sternness. As to Madame Beck, she, of course, saw nothing – nothing; though her kinsman retained in her presence the hand of the heretic foreigner, not suffering withdrawal, but clasping it close and fast.
    Following these incidents, that sudden announcement of departure had struck me at first as incredible. Indeed, it was only frequent repetition, and the credence of the hundred and fifty minds round me, which forced on me its full acceptance. As to that week of suspense, with its blank yet burning days, which brought from him no word of explanation – I remember, but I cannot describe its passage.
    The last day broke. Now would he visit us. Now he would come and speak his farewell, or he would vanish mute, and be seen by us nevermore.
    This alternative seemed to be present in the mind of not a living creature in that school. All rose at the usual hour; all breakfasted as usual; all, without reference to, or apparent thought of their late professor, betook themselves with wonted phlegm to their ordinary duties.
    So oblivious was the house, so tame, so trained its proceedings, so inexpectant its aspect – I scarce knew how to breathe in an atmosphere thus stagnant, thus smothering. Would no one lend me a voice? Had no one a wish, no one a word, no one a prayer to which I could say – Amen?
    I had seen them unanimous in demand for the merest trifle – a treat, a holiday, a lesson's remission; they could not, they
would
not now band to besiege Madame Beck, and insist on a last interview with a Master who had certainly been loved, at least by some – loved as
they
could love – but, oh! what
is
the love of the multitude?
    I knew where he lived: I knew where he was to be heard of, or communicated with; the distance was scarce a stone's throw; had it been in the next room – unsummoned, I could make no use of my knowledge. To follow, to seek out, to remind, to recall – for these things I had no faculty.
    M. Emanuel might have passed within reach of my arm: had he passed silent and unnoticing, silent and stirless, should I have suffered him to go by.
    Morning wasted. Afternoon came, and I thought all was over. My heart trembled in its place. My blood was troubled in its current. I was quite sick, and hardly knew how to keep at my post or do my work. Yet the little world round me plodded on indifferent; all seemed jocund, free of care, or fear, or thought: the very pupils who, seven days since, had wept hysterically at a startling piece of news, appeared quite to have forgotten the news, its import, and their emotion.
    A little before five o'clock, the hour of dismissal, Madame Beck sent for me to her chamber, to read over and translate some English letter she had received, and to write for her the answer. Before settling to this work, I observed that she softly closed the two doors of her chamber; she even shut and