Your Heart Belongs to Me

of the terrifying seizure.
    He turned away from the TV, switched on a lamp. He stared at his trembling hands, closed them into fists, opened them once more, half expecting some degree of paralysis, but finding none.
    In his bathroom, black granite, gold onyx, and stainless steel were reflected in a wilderness of mirrors. An infinite line of Ryan Perrys faced him, all of them gray and haggard and grim with dread.
    As never before, he was aware of the skull beneath the skin, each curve and plane and hollow of bone, the perpetual death’s-head grin concealed behind every expression that his face assumed.
     

     
    Shaved, showered, and dressed, Ryan found his estate manager, Lee Ting, in the garage.
    This large subterranean space provided eighteen parking stalls. The ceiling was ten feet high, to accommodate delivery trucks and—if he should ever want one—a motor home.
    Golden ceramic tile, a kind used in automobile showrooms, paved the floor. Glossy white tile covered the walls. The brightwork on the Woodie and other classic vehicles sparkled in the beams of pin spots.
    Ryan had always before thought the garage was beautiful, even elegant. Now the cold tile reminded him of a mausoleum.
    In the corner workshop, Lee Ting was polishing a custom-made license-plate frame for one of the cars.
    He was a small man but strong. He appeared to be cast from bronze not yet patinaed, and prominent veins swelled in his hands.
    At fifty, his life was defined by parenthood denied, his hope of family thwarted. Kay Ting twice conceived, but a subsequent uterine infection left her sterile.
    Their first child had been a daughter. At the age of two, she died of influenza. Their second, a son, was also gone.
    The sight of certain young children elicited from them the most tender smiles, even as their eyes glistened with the memory of loss.
    When the power buffer clicked off, Ryan said, “Lee, do you have a staff meeting this morning or appointments with anyone?”
    Surprised, Lee turned. His face brightened, his chin lifted, and a cheerful expectation came into him, as though nothing pleased him more than the opportunity to be of good service.
    Ryan suspected this was in fact the case. All the strivings and the particular satisfactions of raising a family, denied to Lee, were now expressed in his job.
    Putting aside the license-plate frame, Lee said, “Good morning, Mr. Perry. I have nothing scheduled that Kay can’t cover for me. What do you need?”
    “I was hoping you could drive me to a doctor’s appointment.”
    Concern diminished the arc of Lee’s smile. “Is something wrong, sir?”
    “Nothing much. I just feel off, a little nauseous. I’d prefer not to drive myself.”
    Most men of Ryan’s wealth employed a chauffeur. He loved cars too much to delegate his driving.
    Lee Ting clearly knew this need for a driver was proof of more than mild nausea. He at once snared a key from the key safe and went with Ryan to the Mercedes S605.
    A tenderness in Lee’s manner and a wounded expression in his eyes suggested that he regarded his boss as more than an employer. He was, after all, just old enough to have been Ryan’s father.
    The twelve-cylinder Mercedes seemed to float on a cushion of air, and little road noise reached them. Although the sedan rode like a dream, Ryan knew that it carried him toward a nightmare.
     

 
    FIVE

    R yan’s internist had a concierge practice limited to three hundred patients. He guaranteed an appointment within one day of a request, but he saw Ryan only three hours after receiving his call.
    From an examination room on the fourteenth floor, Ryan could see Newport Harbor, the Pacific Ocean, distant ships bound for unknown shores.
    His doctor, Forest Stafford, had already examined him, and a med tech had administered an electrocardiogram. Then Ryan had gone down to a medical imaging company on the third floor, where they had conducted an echocardiogram.
    At the fourteenth-floor window, he waited now for Dr. Stafford to return with an interpretation of the tests.
    An armada of large white clouds sailed slowly north, but their shadows were iron-black upon the sea, pressing the surf flat.
    The door opened behind Ryan. Feeling as weightless as a cloud, and half afraid that in an angled light he would cast no shadow, he turned away from the window.
    Forest Stafford’s powerful square body was in contrast to his rectangular countenance, in which his features were elongated, as if affected by a