Chosen

that note from Heath." I remembered I still had Heath's gorgeous bracelet on my wrist so I dropped my hand down and pressed it against my side, wishing the adorably cute little hearts would stop jingling so merrily. Then I added lamely, "Plus, you're right. Stevie Rae has really shaken me up." Then I clamped my mouth shut because I realized I had (again) talked about the supposedly dead Stevie Rae as if she was alive, or in her case I guess I should say not dead. And, of course, I was babbling like the desperate psycho I was trying not to appear to be.
    Erik's blue eyes seemed to look inside me. "Would things be easier for you if I just backed off and left you alone for a while?"
    "No!" He was really making my stomach hurt. "It definitely wouldn't be easier if you backed off."
    "You've just been so not here since Stevie Rae died. I can understand if you need some space."
    "Erik, the truth is it's not just Stevie Rae. There's other stuff going on with me that's really hard to talk about."
    He moved closer and took my hand, lacing his fingers through mine. "Can't you tell me? I'm pretty good at fixing problems. Maybe I could help."
    I looked up into his eyes and wanted so damn bad to tell him everything about Stevie Rae and Neferet and even Heath that I could feel myself sway toward him. Erik closed the little space left between us and I slid into his arms with a sigh. He always smelled so good and felt incredibly strong and solid.
    I rested my cheek against his chest. "Are you kidding, of course you're good at fixing problems. You're good at everything. Actually, you're freakishly close to perfect."
    I felt his chest rumble as he laughed. "You say that like it's a bad thing."
    "It's not a bad thing—it's an intimidating thing," I mumbled.
    "Intimidating!" He pulled back so that he could look at me. "You've got to be kidding!" He laughed again.
    I frowned up at him. "Why are you laughing at me?"
    He hugged me and said, "Z, do you have any clue what it's like to date a girl who is the most powerful fledgling in the history of vampyres?"
    "No, I don't date girls." Not that there's anything wrong with lesbians.
    He took my chin in his hand and tilted my face up. "You can be scary, Z. You control the elements, all of them. Talk about having a girlfriend it'd be best not to piss off."
    "Oh, please! Don't be silly. I've never zapped you." I didn't mention that I have actually zapped people. Most specifically undead people. Well, and his ex-girlfriend, Aphrodite (who is about as hateful and annoying as the undead dead). But it was probably a good idea not to bring all that up.
    "I'm just saying that you don't need to be intimidated by anyone. You're amazing, Zoey. Don't you know that?"
    "I guess not. Things have been kinda foggy lately."
    Erik pulled back again and looked at me. "Then let me help clear things up for you."
    I felt myself swimming in his blue eyes. Maybe I could tell him. Erik was a fifth former, and in the middle of his third year at the House of Night. He was almost nineteen and an amazingly talented actor. (He can sing, too.) If any fledgling could keep a secret it would be him. But as I opened my mouth to blurt the truth about undead Stevie Rae a terrible feeling clenched my stomach and made the words freeze in my throat. It was that feeling again. The gut-deep feeling I get that tells me to keep my mouth shut or run like hell or sometimes just take a breath and think. Right now it was telling me in an impossible to ignore way that I needed to keep my mouth shut, which Erik's next words just reinforced.
    "Hey, I know you'd rather talk to Neferet, but she won't be back for maybe another week or so. I could stand in for her until then."
    Neferet was the one person or vampyre I absolutely could not talk to. Hell, Neferet and her psychic-ness was the reason I couldn't talk to my friends or Erik about Stevie Rae.
    "Thanks, Erik." Automatically, I started to pull out of his arms. "But I have to work through this myself."
    He let go of me so suddenly I almost fell backward. "It's him, isn't it?"
    "Him?"
    "That human guy. Heath. Your old boyfriend. He's coming back in two days and that's why you're acting weird."
    "I'm not acting weird. At least not that weird."
    "Then why won't you let me touch you?"
    "What are you talking about? I let you touch me. I just hugged you."
    "For about two seconds. Then you pulled away, like you've been doing for a while now. Look, if I've done something wrong you need to let me know