In the Midst of Life

time-stop of the deathbed plays no part in the rush and perpetual motion of our busy lives. ‘Death? What is it to us? We want to live, live, live – don’t be morbid. We want sex, fun, sensations – don’t be a bore. We want money, careers, possessions – don’t be a drag. Friends, relationships, travel – these are the things we want. Death doesn’t come into it. Go away!’
    Each of us is going to die, whether we like it or not, but it only hinders acceptance of the fact if we never come near it. If we could see the infinite variety of emotions, insights, experiences and delight in little things that are granted to people as they approach the end, if we knew how human understanding and love can grow and flower in the last stages of life, if we witnessed the peace and tranquillity that is given to us in the last hours before death, we would be less afraid.
    The Berber children saw the tranquillity of death in that sunbaked room in Morocco. But we seem to think that our children should be shielded from it. ‘He is too young to be told. It would upset him,’ I have heard. And on another occasion, ironically from a professed atheist, ‘We didn’t know what to tell her, so we said that Granny has gone away to live with the angels in the sky.’ This sort of over-protection is misplaced. Another generation will grow up, remote from reality, and they, in turn, will want no contact with death or the dying. Parents who think they are shielding their children from something unpleasant are ensuring that, when their own time comes, they will be left to die alone.
    Yet children are increasingly exposed to violent death on film, television and computer games. They have a morbid fascination for horror and many are allowed unrestricted access to these sources, so they are able to see people carving each other up, and inflictingunimaginable suffering. And this is the generation of children whose parents imagine they are too tender to be exposed to natural death. What an irony!
    Many years ago Anthony Bloom, Metropolitan Archbishop of the Russian Orthodox Church in England, played an important role in my life. He said that, when he first came to this country, the thing that horrified him the most was the attitude to death that he encountered. As a Russian, he came from a nation and a church where death was a normal part of life, something we all have to face, something known, seen and accepted. But, in this country, he was shocked to find that death was almost regarded as an indecency, provoking the most profound embarrassment, and certainly not a subject to be talked about. To his surprise and dismay, he found that meaningful contact with death was comparatively rare.
    He said that he visited an English family where a much-loved grandmother had died at home. The family was grieving, but the children were not around. He asked where they were, and was told that they had been sent away because they should not see ‘that sort of thing’. In surprise he asked, ‘But why not?’ It was the father’s turn to be shocked. He said it was quite unthinkable. The children knew what death was because they had seen it when a rabbit had been killed and half eaten by dogs in the garden, and they had been terribly upset. He and his wife had agreed that they must be sent away because they might have wandered into Granny’s room while she was dying or, which would have been far more upsetting for them, when she was actually dead. Such a possibility could not be countenanced.
    Did these parents really mean to leave their children with the idea that their grandmother was now like the dead rabbit, savaged by dogs? Children are highly imaginative. They would have sensed that something was wrong in the looks passing between adults, the hushed voices, the unfinished sentences – the ‘not in front of the children’. Or worse, they might have been told silly lies about their grandmother’s condition, which they would neither believe norunderstand. Finally, to be sent away at a time of family crisis would have alarmed and frightened them. Their imaginations would have been inflamed, and they might have invented all sorts of lurid tales about the thing that was happening to Granny that was so terrible they were not allowed to see it.
    In being kept away, they were denied seeing the true mystery and nobility of death, which any child can understand. They were not allowed to see their grandmother’s slow decline, nor see her lying quiet