Purple Hibiscus

because there was hardly enough room in the kitchen not to get in her way, as she drained rice at the sink, checked on the cooking meat, blended tomatoes in a mortar. The light blue kitchen tiles were worn and chipped at the corners, but they looked scrubbed clean, as did the pots, whose lids did not fit, one side slipping crookedly into the pot. The kerosene stove was on a wooden table by the window. The walls near the window and the threadbare curtains had turned black-gray from the kerosene smoke. Aunty Ifeoma chattered as she put the rice back on the stove and chopped two purple onions, her stream of sentences punctuated by her cackling laughter. She seemed to be laughing and crying at the same time because she reached up often to brush away the onion tears with the back of her hand.
    Her children came in a few minutes later. They looked different, maybe because I was seeing them for the first time in their own home rather than in Abba, where they were visitorsin Papa-Nnukwu’s house. Obiora took off a dark pair of sunglasses and slipped them in the pockets of his shorts as they came in. He laughed when he saw me.
    “Jaja and Kambili are here!” Chima piped.
    We all hugged in greeting, brief clasps of our bodies. Amaka barely let her sides meet mine before she backed away. She was wearing lipstick, a different shade that was more red than brown, and her dress was molded to her lean body.
    “How was the drive down here?” she asked, looking at Jaja.
    “Fine,” Jaja said. “I thought it would be longer than it was.”
    “Oh, Enugu really isn’t that far from here,” Amaka said.
    “We still haven’t bought the soft drinks, Mom,” Obiora said.
    “Did I not tell you to buy them before you left,
gbo
?” Aunty Ifeoma slid the onion slices into hot oil and stepped back.
    “I’ll go now. Jaja, do you want to come with me? We’re just going to a kiosk in the next compound.”
    “Don’t forget to take empty bottles,” Aunty Ifeoma said.
    I watched Jaja leave with Obiora. I could not see his face, could not tell if he felt as bewildered as I did.
    “Let me go and change, Mom, and I’ll fry the plantains,” Amaka said, turning to leave.
    “
Nne
, go with your cousin,” Aunty Ifeoma said to me.
    I followed Amaka to her room, placing one frightened foot after the next. The cement floors were rough, did not let my feet glide over them the way the smooth marble floors back home did. Amaka took her earrings off, placed them on top of the dresser, and looked at herself in the full-length mirror. I sat on the edge of the bed, watching her, wondering if she knew that I had followed her into the room.
    “I’m sure you think Nsukka is uncivilized compared toEnugu,” she said, still looking in the mirror. “I told Mom to stop forcing you both to come.”
    “I…we…wanted to come.”
    Amaka smiled into the mirror, a thin, patronizing smile that seemed to say I should not have bothered lying to her. “There’s no happening place in Nsukka, in case you haven’t realized that already. Nsukka has no Genesis or Nike Lake.”
    “What?”
    “Genesis and Nike Lake, the happening places in Enugu. You go there all the time, don’t you?”
    “No.”
    Amaka gave me an odd look. “But you go once in a while?”
    “I…yes.” I had never been to the restaurant Genesis and had only been to the hotel Nike Lake when Papa’s business partner had a wedding reception there. We had stayed only long enough for Papa to take pictures with the couple and give them a present.
    Amaka picked up a comb and ran it through the ends of her short hair. Then she turned to me and asked, “Why do you lower your voice?”
    “What?”
    “You lower your voice when you speak. You talk in whispers.”
    “Oh.” I said, my eyes focused on the desk, which was full of things—books, a cracked mirror, felt-tipped pens.
    Amaka put the comb down and pulled her dress over her head. In her white lacy bra and light blue underwear, she looked like a Hausa goat: brown, long and lean. I quickly averted my gaze. I had never seen anyone undress; it was sinful to look upon another person’s nakedness.
    “I’m sure this is nothing close to the sound system in your room in Enugu,” Amaka said. She pointed at the small cassette player at the foot of the dresser. I wanted to tell her that I did not have any kind of music system in my room back home, but I was not sure she would be pleased to hear that, just as she would not be pleased to hear