Some Quiet Place

to take away the pain. You asked me to change who you were. Not to mention that he was still looking for you. This is the result we both came up with.”
    I just keep shaking my head. Ignoring me, Denial app-roaches the nightstand beside Elizabeth’s bed. She studies a picture there of her and her brother. “It was so simple. I’m surprised it took you this long to figure it out. The only tricky part was coming back every so often to alter the illusion so you appeared older. Couldn’t have you looking like a little girl forever. And you clung to the lie so hard that you never even sensed me.”
    I straighten, glaring at Denial through my tears. I can taste a blob of paint on my lip, and green hair hangs in my eyes. “What do you want from me? Your part in this is finished. The illusion is broken. I remember. You can go.”
    Denial doesn’t soften. “I care about you, despite what a pain in my ass you’ve been the last thirteen years. I’ll leave when I’m sure you’re not going to slit your wrists. And I won’t let you sit around and wallow. You either continue your existence here or start anew somewhere else. Your choice.”
    “That’s no choice,” I retort, but the words are weak.
    She sighs, but I’m not done. There’s something that’s been haunting me, and I can’t let it go. “Just tell me one more thing,” I whisper, briefly closing my eyes as if my eyelids alone can keep away all the shadows and the mistakes. “If … if I’d broken the illusion sooner, if I’d gotten my powers back … could I have saved Maggie?”
    Pity blooms in Denial’s gaze, and I hate that. But she doesn’t mince words. “Probably. There isn’t much you can’t bring back with a touch. But, Rebecca … I’d guess that you just being there prolonged her life. You gave her more time, even with the illusion intact.”
    It isn’t enough. I hate that word. Probably . I turn my back on her, wishing so hard that none of this had ever happened, that I could destroy all the probably s, that I could go back in time and save Landon, tell Fear that I loved him too, stop my mom from leaving that day. But maybe she didn’t leave … maybe my father forced her away, and by the time she escaped him, got back, we were already—
    The reflection in the mirror next to the door catches my eye, and I freeze.
    If I needed anything else to prove that I’m really not Elizabeth anymore, the face staring back at me would be it. The girl gaping in the glass is someone I haven’t seen in a long, long time. She’s so different from Elizabeth Caldwell. Her cheekbones are high, her brown eyes slightly slanted. Her skin is paler, her hair so dark it could be called black. It tumbles over her back in exotic, uncontrollable curls. Her nose is slightly upturned, and her lips are full, pouty. Her collarbone is so delicate it looks like it could be snapped with one blow of a fist. When I raise my hand, the girl in the mirror raises her hand, too. Her fingernails are round, oval-shaped, and there, there is the one thing that reveals that she was once upon a time a girl who worked in a barn, hauled rocks from a field, withstood the abuse of a man who reeked of alcohol: there is dirt under those nails.
    And one random thought that shouldn’t even occur to me in the wake of remembering my twin’s death: what will Fear think?
    Shuddering, experiencing so many things I feel like my skin is going to expand, I turn back to Denial. She’s studying the mural with something akin to sadness in her eyes. She almost seems … drained. Her gaze lands on what was once Landon before I ruined him, and now real sorrow does bloom in her expression. How could I have forgotten? She loved him, too. Many times I would catch the end of a lingering glance between Denial and my twin. Whether something ever came of those looks I’ll never know, but I do know there won’t be anything more.
    I swallow. I look back at the destroyed mural, this room that no longer belongs to me. Never belonged to me, really. There’s nothing here for me anymore. All I’m leaving is emptiness, and memories that should never have been mine.
    I turn my back to it all. “I know what I want to do.”
    There’s a note for Charles on his bed. Three sentences, one farewell: I’m going back to where it started. Thank you for saving me. You were the one who made me believe in humanity.
    There’s a suitcase in the passenger seat of Elizabeth’s truck, stuffed with her clothes—which