Light in the Shadows

I knew I needed to capitalize on this situation before it slipped through my grasp.
                    Clay had been keeping the physical intimacy at arm’s length.  I tried to understand his motives, but it mostly left me feeling extremely unsatisfied and more than a little rejected.  But feeling him harden beneath me, I knew instinctively that he wouldn’t stop it this time. 
                    I wound my arms behind his neck and leaned into him, our mouths furtively touching.  My hands dove into his thick, wet hair and I gave it a little tug, making him chuckle beneath my lips.  “Playing rough, huh?” he teased and I gave his hair another pull. 
                    His teeth nipped at my bottom lip and I squirmed in his lap.  There was so little fabric between us and his erection was very apparent.  Clay’s hands came up my sides, causing me to shiver.  “Is this what you want for your birthday, Maggie?” he asked breathlessly. 
                  I wrapped my legs around his waist and rocked myself gently against him, causing his eyes to close and his head to fall back.  “What do you think?” I asked, kissing the underside of his jaw. 
                    Clay’s head snapped up and he grabbed ahold of my face and pulled me, almost roughly, to his mouth, where he attacked me like a drowning man.  Our lips and tongues worked furiously at each other. 
                    My hands couldn’t touch enough of him.  My fingers clawed at his back as he pulled my bikini top down and cupped my breasts.  I moaned loudly and began to rock against him again.  The friction between my legs was unbelievable. 
                    “My God, Maggie, I need you so badly,” he let out in almost tortured anguish.  He sounded strangled and afraid but so desperate for me that I could do nothing but comply.
    With shaking fingers, Clay loosened the bikini tie around my neck, where it promptly fell to my middle.  His hands were back on my breasts, rubbing and kneading until I felt myself start to build toward the inevitable explosion.
                    I pushed his shoulders until he lay on his back while I still straddled him.  He made quick work of my bottoms until I was completely naked above him.  He pulled back, resting his head on the ground and looked up at with me such adoration that it made my heart clench painfully and my lungs squeeze tightly.  What had I ever done to deserve this kind of love? 
                    I suddenly remembered Rachel telling me after Clay’s parents had come into town and blown his world apart, that our love wasn’t one she would want.  I had agreed at the time, so overwhelmed with the hurt and devastation that had been a constant side effect of loving him not so long ago.
                    Looking down at Clay, his dark hair slicked back, his eyes radiating warmth and devotion, I knew that now, this love that had taken me to the highest heights and the lowest depths, that had terrified me and filled me with hope.  This love between us was something I wanted to feel for the rest of my life.
                    “I love you,” I whispered, tears filling my eyes.  Clay reached up and cradled my face in his hand.
                    “I’ll love you forever,” he answered as he pulled me back down to his waiting mouth.  He removed his swimming trunks, adding them to the pile of soggy clothing on the ground.  When we were completely bare, we held each other tight, needing the press of skin to skin, no barriers. 
                    The next moments moved both too fast and achingly slow.  The sound of the foil packet punctuated the air.  Our heavy breathing as Clay rolled me over and positioned himself between my legs.
                  Then the smooth, perfect union as he slid into my body.  It was like coming home.  I thought my heart would burst with the amazing sensations that overtook me.  And as we started to move together, flesh on flesh, our hands touching, lips tasting, the only sounds were the beating of our hearts and our soft whispered I love you s. 
                    When we were finished and Clay held me securely in his arms, I felt a sudden shift, as though I had better enjoy this moment because it just might be the last.  I didn’t understand my sudden bout of doom