Them or Us

padlock, then press down hard. It takes more effort this time (and I can feel my energy levels really starting to fade), but the lock eventually gives. I unravel her chains, and then, when she can’t get over the barrier, I reach down and lift her up. There’s nothing to her, absolutely no weight at all. She holds on to me, her tiny arms tight around my shoulders, her legs wrapped around my waist. I try to put her down, but I can’t. She won’t let go. This reminds me how it used to be when I held Ellis and the boys, feeling them close against you, hearing their breathing, reacting to their every movement …
    Put the fucking kid down and get out of here.
    I try to lower her, but she still won’t let go. When another loud explosion rocks the building, she grips me even tighter, her fingers digging into my back.
    Put the fucking kid down!
    This time I peel her off me, prying off her fingers and unraveling her legs, then putting her down and backing up to put some distance between us. She just stands there looking up at me, not saying anything but asking a thousand questions with those huge, innocent eyes.
    “Where’s Charlie?”
    “Who?”
    “Charlie,” she says. “You know, Charlotte. She came here with us.”
    She’s talking about the dead girl upstairs. I try to tell her the truth, but I can’t.
    “She’s already gone,” I lie. “Now you need to do the same. Get out of here. There’s trouble coming.”
    “Where?” the boy asks, shivering. He’s dressing himself in rags he’s stripped from another child’s corpse.
    “What?”
    “Where do we go?”
    “How am I supposed to know? Just stay away from the town. Get onto the beach and follow it south as far as you can.”
    “Which way’s south?”
    “That way,” I tell him, pointing and backing away from them both again.
    “But the people out there,” he continues, his voice unsure, “the Haters … they’ll find us, won’t they? They’ll kill us…”
    The girl starts to cry again, and I struggle to shut the noise out. What do these children think I am? I spent a couple of days in their shelter with them, but surely they must know I’m not like them. Then again, they also know I’m not acting like any of the other people they’ve seen since they’ve been here.
    “Can’t you take us back?” the girl asks, her voice barely audible. Her bottom lip quivers and tears roll down her cheeks.
    “Back where?”
    “Back to where we were before. With Sally and Mr. Greene. Where all those cones and traffic signs were.”
    She’s talking about the storage depot where I found them. “You can’t go back there,” I answer quickly, not thinking about the effect my words will have on her. “That place is gone now, and all the people who were there are gone, too.”
    She just nods, her tiny body shuddering as she sobs, her tear-streaked face filled with resignation.
    “You got any food?” the boy asks. “Really hungry.”
    I check my bag and my pockets. All I find is the half-finished packet of sweets, which I hand over.
    “My daddy says—” the girl begins.
    “That you shouldn’t take sweets from strangers,” I say, finishing her sentence for her, immediately slipping back into parent mode even after all this time. “Your daddy was right, but things are a bit different now, aren’t they?”
    She doesn’t answer, too busy cramming several of the sweets into her mouth. Strings of sticky dribble are running down her chin. This is probably the first thing these kids have eaten in days. The roar of another engine outside snaps me out of my dangerous malaise. I jog toward the nearest door.
    “You can’t leave us,” the boy shouts after me.
    “Yes I can.”
    “But they’ll kill us…”
    “It’s probably for the best.”
    I know I should just keep moving and not look back again, but I can’t. Standing behind me, their mouths full of sugar, faces streaked with dirt, are two kids. Two normal, rational kids behaving like normal, rational human beings, not like the hundreds of blood-crazed, mad bastards fighting to the death outside this place. Kids like the children in the family I used to be a part of before the Hate tore everything apart and left my world in ruins, not like the barely controlled, feral creatures Hinchcliffe held captive elsewhere on this site. This innocent, completely helpless boy and girl deserve better than this, but what else can I do? They’re dead already. The second they’re outside this place